Sunday, March 30, 2008
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econs is killer, and i havent completed gp newsweek and pi and phy pip and maths and bio prac and chem tut. DEAD.
have always wondered how nice it would be, to climb trees and just relax, or to be able to talk to animals and understand how they felt about us humans. or to be able to go to the sea on a cool day and enjoy the view, or to climb to the top of my house and play there.
so many things that one could have fun with, and yet something or another would deny us any chance of enjoying them. probably because of the strictness of our parents (i dont think thats bad - i thank them for being strict.), or school, or our other commitments, but how carefree that would have been. being closer to nature, having fun at the same time while relaxing, simply enjoying life...
just imagine, if we were all just gathering in a group, not caring about homework, and, just like after cip, just playing and talking and laughing. but instead of just cycling/talking, we would be playing in the sea, on the sand, climbing up the smaller trees, going up the observatory tower, running along the fishing harbour... acting just like we were small kids once again. no worries, no troubles, just simple, innocent joy and happiness.
im so envious of the smaller kids around me. their laughter, true; their actions, innocent; their minds, open; their hearts, pure. i guess its them, kids, who make the world go round, and help us balance this world of troubles and pain.
i once saw a kid playing with a kitten along a void deck near my old house. the kitten was a stray, and wouldnt go near anyone from my memory. until that day. its amazing how this kid, not older than 6, can relate to a stray kitten too frightened to be out in the open, yet there they were, playing, not caring about anything else. soon enough, the kid's mother came along, reprimanded the boy for being in contact with the stray, and took him home (presumably). surprisingly, even though he was pulled away, he turned and waved to the kitten with a smile on his face. and the kitten just sat there, looking at the boy until he turned the corner, then ran off to hide again.
and i was just standing there, transfixed.
to me, animals and young kids are very similar. mostly adorable, mostly innocent; its like they can link so easily that you would assume they knew each other since they were born. however, as we grow up, hostilities set in, and most adults we see nowadays couldnt care less for a stray. i guess theres nothing i can do about it, and i would probably become like that as well, but for now, yeah, lets just hope for the better.
i would really like to climb that tree and admire the view from up there, but i would probably just get fined by ministry of environment. wth. thats all for ranting. back to reality.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
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i am seriously injury-prone.
injured shoulder. cant lift arm properly, but fingers still usable, at least. training la. and had a talk with several people about my situation. coach thought i was putting cca in second priority to council, when i was still deciding on which to drop. didnt know that i had decided to stick with cca. >< thanks to madeline and jingfang (sorry if i misspelled your names. do you even know this blog exists? -.-) for cheering me up. =)
i got team bag! hahaha very BIG. can see on monday, made to use it as schoolbag as well. but super ex. $60! thats like 3 weeks of savings. >< but at least its nice and (hopefully) durable. yayness~ xDD
anyway im still behind schoolwork. havent done gp, pip or pi yet. now still doing maths. need to borrow someone's econs notes as well, and bio prac stuffs. bleh. test...
(charlene) i dont know about the right choice, and council isnt dangerous! xD its fun and all. but even my dad was telling me to drop training and go for council... o.O but thanks for your encouragement and support. =)
(szeying) haha no la, not suck. changed layout and all already! and it was due to bts anyway. animals are nice.
(liyi) ahaha where's your blog?
okay back to work.
Friday, March 28, 2008
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4 days since last post. and i still havent completed hw. dies.
finally decided to drop out of council yesterday afternoon. after talking to team mates and teacher i/c, and thinking through it for the past 2 weeks.. no matter which one i chose in the end, i know that i'll regret not taking it up. but have to make a decision and walk down only one path. taking both paths would just kill me, while carrying that heavy backpack that is schoolwork. good luck iParty. jia you zijie, bey and boxun.
was talking to
i got bronze. but am not very satisfied with the way i competed.. and no more blaming my injuries. its my skill and technique thats super lousy. not to mention speed and strength as well. inferior. must start training. want to know scores for all divs and so on, ask me or any other team mate. big guy probably already has posted on his blog anyway..
so thur went to fight in the morning and supported the c boys (and c girls) in the afternoon. then missed one full day's lessons. maths tut 7a and b must complete, right? ><><
parents came back today after c1 parents day. my first term was very screwed, and the second term isnt going to go easy on me either. =( but still pushing on. must work harder, and must organise time better. its all about schoolwork now. i should probably use this time to finish maths..
i miss everyone. j3s, 08s73, og12, council, 4b07,
Monday, March 24, 2008
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haha liyi start blog! then we can spam and have more fun reading and can spam and waste time finding out if you have updated your blog and can spam and yeah. =D
met up with 6a2003 small gang last thu after cip. didnt know until jm asked me if i was going. then chionged to bishan (past ps) and realised that they were at ps. phone died at cip, but charged at bishan nokia store. then chionged to ps and searched, and cant find. so smsed nic. received the reply, tried to reply, then phone died again. >< nice la. in the end found pf and followed her to the gang. then followed them to fish&co at glass house and ate and got cip opportunity with kel which jon thinks shouldnt be our project. then they went back to ps after losing our way in an underground passageway and i went home.
she switched to contacts.
i dont mind having those kind of sports things for GEMs. but like esther said, maybe something that can be used in our future lives. but sports more fun.. >< can right? archery? shoot arrows. -.- heck, follow kaiyuan. shoot the chicken into the oven and bake.
lagging far behind in homework. bio, chem, maths, econs, gp, pw, phy. thats all the subjects we are taking. all here a bit there a bit then come back a lot. i should be doing bio now, but i want to write something here first... and council campaign finally picking up some slack. a lot of slack, actually. which reminds me, i need to take raffia from my toolkit. later ba.
wed free day! but still have training. and still doing campaign. and still have homework. >< and thu is competition. im scared. my skills and all are no where near competing standards... and i think my toe has problem. junior's back smashed into it during sparring today, and couldnt use it properly since. now developed very ugly bruising, and hurts when i move it. hopefully not fracture... and im still sick, and my knees and head arent helping much.
went back with the rest of iParty after banner painting today. i went crazy with bey la. talking about animal cruelty and rights, and me protecting and loving animals and being an environmentalist. bey just cant seem to stop niao-ing la. lol. then on the way to bus stop he was like "ehh say you love * leh. then i reply." or something like that. so i went "i love (1), i love (2), i love (3), i love (4). repeat." and he went "i hate (1), i hate (2), i hate (3), i hate (4). repeat." -.- wth lor. xDD
so what if i like animals? just look at the panda in my dp. isnt it cute?! hahaha. i wanna go out sometime. im tired. i want an escape. maybe jump to some random reserve and rest; look at the animals and plants and stuff. saw a cat on the way home. randoming. but it was super cute la. =)
anyway its time to do bio. or not im DEAD. and this blog shall not DIE yet. see. long post. xD oh and its EMELYNE! haha not emelyene. waahahah. and updated the class photobucket. where are the rest of the photos?
Saturday, March 22, 2008
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i'm here, and my blog isnt dead. but i dont know how long it can survive...
HAHA szeying was my blog very difficult to find? its just there on the class blog. and np. lol. your tag super funny.
i just realised i dont know half the things going around me. all the people around me, i dont know so many things about them, so many things that they are doing, so many things that are revolving around them. heck, i dont even know what im doing. i need to do some F5's in my life.
i know i failed maths. prob the lowest. and bleh, competition and campaign next week. and phy test on monday. and where did wednesday go!? RAHH.
ehh marvin. only in good mood then i listen to you is it? haha, maybe i should try to listen more. sometimes just too fan already, so i just zi bi. sorry. >< and whats with the emelyne and me thing?
OH and it's emeLYNE, not emeLYENE. i think. shall ask her later in school.
thanks liyi for listening on thursday. =)
i shall try to post at least once a week, starting next week. but considering how much my memory can actually retain, thats quite... difficult. heck, i couldnt even remember clearly all the details about the week like esther can. im seriously wondering how she can recall all those things and put them down in words lor. >< photographic memory.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
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exactly one month to happy day! haha. i hope so, anyway.
and the one week break is almost gone. and i havent done nuts about my homework, just touched them here and there... die. preparations for maths and phy are so not done, and econs ilp and campaign all poorly done. must kao zijie and bey and boxun for the latter.
theory may be easier than practical, but its still no fun. and enlin was mugging away while i was playing/watching movie. guilty! T.T haha but esther and enlin like super pro in music stuff. can ask them almost anything and they can answer one lor. unlike bey who talks about random history crap when we were talking about the musical time periods. i seriously have no idea how im going to get past this sat. pon-ning training for the exam too. =D
had ct gathering today. my place, directly after phy lesson, which was kinda insane. pekyee, liyi overseas, xueqin, charlene sick, anying, jiali personal matters, sophia no physics/no idea where she was. so in the end emelyne esther enlin sheryl (who came due to "fate", as she calls it. xD) jonathan bey zijie kianmin marvin boxun came over for gathering. did i leave out anyone? i count only 17.
anyway, lunch was spaghetti, chicken wings, nuggets, mushroom-pork-roll-things, and broccoli. and i didnt know marvin was carnivorous. o.O and esther should eat more. even enlin (mugging theory) took second helpings! esther enlin and marvin were watching tom and jerry with my youngest sister while eating. after makan sheryl left for competition. then set up one table of mahjong and emelyne jonathan boxun and me played. yeah, there are a lot of rules. >< then went up to set up halo2 for bey kianmin and zijie. bey owned me first game la, 3-0. rocket launcher pwned. then went back down to set up kungfu dunk.
in the end all the mahjong people watched the whole of kungfu dunk. then break for 15 minutes. then went back to play mahjong while esther and enlin watched raise your voice. was half-watching-half-playing la. xD then piano teacher came at around 5.45. emelyne and boxun had left, so walked esther enlin jonathan and kianmin to mrt station. then came back and saw bey and zijie off. then went to bathe and do theory and have dinner and have lesson.
weird gathering. less than half the class showed up again. but heck, i thought it was fun even though i wasnt that good a host. >< can improve on my hosting skills. first step: get more drinks. kungfu dunk has no plot. but its kinda cool. haha.
i have training in less than 9 hours time, so bubbye for now. to learn: how to blog nicer; how to post pictures. good night.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
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AND i shall post again. on jonheng's request. to do some quiz. that he, esther, marvin and jon's friends took. mm.
and we shall start.
1. Who took your profile picture?
i dont have a profile pic. my face would have destroyed the camera taking it. =)
2.Exactly what are you wearing right now?
dry-fit shirt + 3/4 pants.
3. What is your current problem?
i. need. SLEEP. + im short. + my grades. + piano! + a lot more. T.T (question should be what ARE your current problemS?)
4. What makes you most happy?
staying out with friends.
5. What's the name of the song you're listening to?
一直很安静 by 阿桑
________________________________________
Chapter 1:ABOUT YOU
1.NiCKNAME?
darou. diarrhoea. darlie. barrel. paikah.
2. Eye color?
brown.
3. Nail color?
colourless?
4.Height?
164 cm. SHORT.WARGH.
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Chapter 2: FAMILY ♥
1. Do you love your parent(s)?
obviously.
2. Do you get along with your parents?
most of the time.
3. Are your parents chill?
probably. depends on viewpoint. xD to me yeah.
4. Do you have any Siblings?
yeah, 2 younger sisters.
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Chapter 3: FAVORITE ♥
1. Ice Cream?
all kinds, except greentea.
2. Season?
winter! although the others have their nice points...
3. Book?
none, i just read whatever i have/can find.
4. Band?
none, i listen to whatever i can.
5. Food?
none, i eat whatever i can. except bitter stuff.
6. Drink(s)?
water. preferably cold, but depends on situation.
7. Pen color?
blue-black. oh-che.
8. Store?
no idea.
9. Persons?
strangers are simply friends you have yet to meet/make. =)
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Chapter 4: DO YOU ♥
1. Write on your hand?
used to. now people draw on mine.
2. Call people back?
as much as i can.
3. Believe in love?
yeah.
4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
heck, i can sleep anywhere.
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Chapter 5: HAVE YOU ♥
1. Kissed someone in the past 48 hours?
cant remember when was the last time i kissed. ><
2. If so...where?
na.
3. Had PHYSICAL therapy?
whats with the caps? yeah. since sec 3, and still ongoing.
4. Gotten surgery?
stitches withstanding, yes. albeit minor.
5. Taken painkillers?
since sec 3. on and off now, mostly off.
6. Overdoes on pain killers?
havent died, so guess not. o.O
7. Been stung by a bee?
YEAH. T.T
8. Threw up in a doctor's office?
no.
________________________________________
Chapter 6: WHO/WHAT WAS THE LAST ♥
1. Person to text you?
esther. about gathering's food.
2. where is #1?
probably sleeping at home. only just went offline.
3. Thing you said?
goodnight.
4. Person you hugged?
i cant remember! but i do know that it was at a busstop somewhere outside school...
ended.
22:28 /
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shall post again to make it less complicated, and to fill what what i left out.
I BOUGHT THE GIANT TURTLE. yayness xD haha. but i dont know if its the one you were referring to. i just got the one i saw that was the best likeliness to your description (which was simply, a giant turtle. o.O). yeah. haha. its not really that giant, but its quite big. hope you like it! but i cant pass it to you this week, can i? never mind.
THANKS FOR MAKING ME THE LEAD CHARACTER OF YOUR VIDEO. now im dao-ed. xD haha not bad la actually, i dont mind helping you guys film again. im such a great actor, right? xDD the toy part was really stupid.
bey is still sick. infections refuse to let him go. i told you, mugging and 4 cans of coffee a day will bring you no good one. rest well hor. and get well soon. regards coming from claire as well. =)
esther, i really wish i could help, as would most people. keep it in your mind that yes, there's the sun after the rain. i cant tell you not to worry; all i can do now is to give you all the (moral) support i can. keep strong, and thanks for the encouragement.
trying to complete theory exam papers now... bleargh. and i fell asleep on the paper this afternoon larh. got scolded by mum. ><><. oh well. if there are any special requests tell me by tomorrow afternoon. or else too bad. yeah.
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and after seeing what jieyang did, i think i shall write here also, so let others know more about my strengths. my top 5 strengths, under the strengthsquest thing:
1. Includer.
"Stretch the circle wider." This is the philosophy around which you orient your life. You want to include people and make them feel part of the group. In direct contrast to those who are drawn only to exclusive groups, you actively avoid those groups that exclude others. You want to expand the group so that as many people as possible can benefit from its support. You hate the sight of someone looking in. You want to draw them in so that they can feel the warmth of the group. You are an instinctively accepting person. Regardless of race or sex or nationality or personality or faith, you cast few judgements. Judgements can hurt a person's feelings. Why do that if you don't have to? Your accepting nature does not necessarily rest on a belief that each of us is different and that one should respect these differences. Rather, it rests on you conviction that fundamentally we are all the same. we are all equally important. Thus, no one should be ignored. Each of us should be included. It is the least we all deserve.
2. Developer.
You see the potential in others. Very often, in fact, potential is all you see. In your view no individual is fully formed. On the contrary, each individual is a work in progress, alive with possibilities. And you are drawn toward people for this very reason. When you interact with others, your goal is to help them experience success. YOu look for ways to challenge them. You devise interesting experiences that can stretch them and help them grow. And all the while you are on the lookout for the signs of growth - a new behaviour learned or modified, a slight improvement in a skill, a glimpse of excellence or of "flow" where previously there were only halting steps. For you these small increments - invisible to some - are clear signs of potential being realised. These signs of growth in others are your fuel. They bring you strength and satisfaction. Over time many will seek you out for help and encouragement because on some level they know that your helpfulness is both genuine and fulfilling to you.
3. Adaptability
You live in the moment. You don't see the future as a fixed destination. Instead, you see it as a place that you create out of the choices that you make right now. And so you discover your future one choice at a time. This doesn't mean that you don't have plans. You probably do. But this theme of Adaptability does enable you to respond willingly to the demands of the moment even if they pull you away from your plans. Unlike some, you don't resent sudden requests or unforeseen detours. You expect them. They are inevitable. Indeed, on some level you actually look forward to them. You are, at heart, a very flexible person who can stay productive when the demands of work are pulling you in many different directions at once.
4. Relator
Relator describes your attitude toward your relationships. In simple terms, the Relator theme pulls you toward people you already know. You do not necessarily shy away from meeting new people - in fact, you may have other themes that cause you to enjoy the thrill of turning strangers into friends - but you do derive a great deal of pleasure and strength from being around your close friends. You are comfortable with intimacy. Once the initial connection has been made, you deliberately encourage a deepening of the relationship. You want to understand their feelings, their goals, their fears, and their dreams; and you want them to understand yours. You know that this kind of closeness implies a certain amount of risk - you might be taken advantage of - but you are willing to accept that risk. For you a relationship has value only if it is genuine. And the only way to know that is to entrust yourself to the other person. The more you share with each other, the more you risk together. The more you risk together, the more each of you proves your caring is genuine. These are your steps toward real friendship, and you take them willingly.
5. Positivity
You are generous with praise, quick to smile, and always on the lookout for the positive in the situation. Some call you lighthearted. Others just wish that their glass were as full as yours seems to be. But either way, people want to be around you. Their world looks better around you because your enthusiasm is contagious. Lacking your energy and optimism, some find their world drab with repetition or, worse, heavy with pressure. You seem to find a way to lighten their spirit.You inject drama into every project. You celebrate every achievement. You find ways to make everything more exceiting and more vital. Some cynics may reject your energy, but you are rarely dragged down. Your Positivity won't allow in. Somehow you can't quite escape your conviction that it is good to be alive, that work can be fun, and that no matter what the setbacks, one must never lose one's sense of humour.
just so that you people can know me better. =)
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in the end, i still took 24 hours after my last post saying that i would update my blog... and im still overdue. ohwell.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YINGYING, my sister, JASPER, SZEYING and my mum! haha 5 people, 4 days. 8/3, 9/3, 10/3, 11/3 and 11/3. and i still havent gotten szeying her present! must try and find. mm. wu gui pa tie chui! =D
ct gathering should be at my place (yay esther did her job as activity i/c! hahaha anyway really, nice job, despite all the niao-ing and all. you were great. =)), directly after physics. lunch, movie screening, mahjong, anything else you guys want that i can provide. please stay as late as possible, and please, in the first place, COME! xD
so far, i've passed phy, and failed chem. and i cant take part in this year's competition already. sigh. i really dont know if i can continue training full time, competitive. but i wanna train normally as well. with them, or you guys, if you are reading.
and im still slacking! haha. been reading manga and piano notes and doing past year papers for theory. exam this sat, 15/3. scared. >< but must try. again. practical already so poor... and i havent touched school work! okay, maybe a bit here and there, but its totally insignificant.
went to celebrate my sister's birthday on sat, 8/3. had cake in the morning, slacked off the afternoon, then went to kinokuniya first before dinner. i bought a book! haha title sport and exercise biomechanics. got phy, chem and bio related stuff in there. and i found my injury! you want to know, look for me. cant write here. (although i think i've posted about it sometime ago... )
then went to kbox for dinner! haha i think we had about 20 people, 3-and-a-half families, all singing and eating and drinking and playing and getting high and happy. xD was quite fun, considering i forgot about online meeting. >< sorry again, jon!
i cant remember what on earth happened last week, or since the last time i posted, except for the important things or something that happened relatively recently. super lousy memory. yeah. heh. but heck, at least i know how to stay sane.
anying has recovered! haha yay! and jon and kaiyuan no more scars, but i still have. how come?! and now bey is sick, some inflammation of the ear and nose and/or something. BEY, lay off on the caffeine for now. its good that you are listening to the doctor and resting, but NO MORE COFFEE OR TEA HOR. and rest well. i will try to remember as much of the presentation as i can. =)
something random to end off:
"stupid jonathan, can't think as fast as daryl. stupid jon. xD" - charlene. WAHAHAHA
we were talking at the busstop and this just came out. haha. no offence jonheng! =)
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s73 rocks. i dont care what the rest say, i dont care how stupid or crazy they think we are for taking tripsci, i love everyone. 08/7s73 = fun+caring+hyper+random+unique+a lot of other things i cant think of right now. we may not be as bonded as other cts/ogs, we may be the smallest ct ever in hci (i think), we may not have the best of talents, BUT WE ARE ONE.
"seven.<3" -jonheng. =)
Sunday, March 02, 2008
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please VOTE FOR ME. thankew. =)
sorry anying! wahh. it all started with me. how are you feeling? maybe you dont read my blog, but just wanted to apologise. even though it probably wasnt my fault. yeah. heck, get well soon yeah? rest more, and come back fast! we need food during gp! haha and your random craziness in class. zao ri kang fu!
was crazy this weekend. sat morning couldnt get up again. coach told cap who told me i may not get to participate if my training stays the way it is now. im trying to change already, but i need to take things one step at a time. i will come for training, but i still need time.
then earned my first tutoring fees. total of $5 per person, $10 total for 2.5 hours! super cheap right! and im very flexible with timing and venue and topic, as long as its science/maths related! haha. but not too bad la, i just hope that my first 2 tutees can do well for their upcoming maths and phy tests.
tried to do some work, but couldnt. no mood. so ended up reading manga again. lucky could go over to yx's place in the evening and stay over. the whole afternoon slacking away, so brought maths and bio to yx's place and mugged with him. completed the yellow assignment (with kaiyuan's help, lol) and carbo tut, then studied enzymes with him till midnight. (8-12 - 4 hrs. wth. im slow.) then watched clannad eps 1-9, and read the first chap of ichigo 100%. and slept at 4.30 am.
woke up at 9 this morning, and tried to study proteins. ended up watching coupling and clannad again. and i teared in clannad! that show's animation is GREAT la. <3 clannad. xD. then went back home at around 12 for brunch. then bathed, and slept for about an hour. woke up, then went with family to aunt's place for dinner. reached there, taught sister more maths, chem and phy, had dinner, then fell asleep waiting for cousins. super nice la, go out and dao me at home. their home some more. haha but when they came back not bad la. i even played my cousin's boyfriend's psp. went home, and now blogging.
just did mbti under jonheng's guidance. not too bad, at least now i know where to work on. now to find out how to work on it. my four letters thing kinda surprised me in a way, but heck. so 2 choices. change others and their thinking about me, or change myself. hmm.
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is it with me, or is it about me? i probably dont know that much, but i want to help myself and you too. its not about trust, is it? i dont want to doubt myself. i want to be certain of who i am, and where i want to go. i want to be able to walk down my decided path confidently.