Wednesday, July 30, 2008
22:48 /
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my dad went for lasik today! haha his 600-degree eyesight suddenly went to no-glasses eyesight. but he was like out of commission for several hours after that. i think he completed the op at 4 plus 5, but was out until 8. blind throughout. had to have help from my mum.
im super envious of those without specs larh. perfect eyesight's so cool. dont need to care about how dirty your specs become or worried that they might get broken somehow. contacts are fine, but quite troublesome, since need to take out every night and wear again the next morning.
and i dont even have proper vision in both eyes. really want to correct the super-bad eye, but seems like nothing can be done at this point of time. i think my mum booked some op in november. its to correct the squint and angle of the eyeball. purely cosmetic, and puts me out of commission for a month at least (no training, sports, anything that may involve contact with my eyes, accidental or intentional), so it kinda sucks. but at least it helps. REALLY helps. although i'll still be as ugly as i am now, maybe slightly better only. xD
really wanna go for lasik, but its like super ex. and i'll be out of action again for a month. (which means no exercise again. ><) but my mum says its cheaper now, and i should go cos the investment in lasik beats having to buy specs/contacts constantly over the years. pays off after about 5-7 years (since im accident-prone). see first la. anyway im still underaged for the op. need to be 18.
and im scared. they use laser to burn off and trim your lens. and before that they cut open your cornea to engage the op. o.O how on earth can people stand that? they do numb your eyes with some eyedrop first, but staring into some laser for several minutes? >< omg larh.
random: somehow, im feeling better and happier after i took another shower. wasting water = relaxation. oops. haha.
heck, think more about that later. its late. bubbye. =)
20:45 /
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should really change my blogskin. probably after nat hols.
im super tired. i dont even know what im doing la. im confused as to how i can control myself. i know i lack seriously lack discipline and willpower, and my time management skills are shit (why am i writing this now when i should be doing maths. -.-), but i cant help myself. that or i just simply refuse to help myself. i dont know.
so every day 2 chapters of any topic of any subject. all the way till promos. and a study plan. yeah, i dont have one. thats why i've been doing so poorly. need to change tack in studying methods. all this talk; i probably should just force myself to start doing things.
got frustrated today after i couldnt do maths. >< sucks. then took a short walk outside, and i realised the method to another physics question totally unrelated... hell, im weird. but at least now i know how i think. better, at least, than what i have been doing.
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sorry, liyi, that i passed you the flu. and sorry that it got so bad, even though apologising wont help you get better. get well soon, and good luck for friday's performance.
sorry, esther, that i did something wrong in term 2. even though i dont know if this apology will be accepted. but im sincerely sorry.
sorry, marvin, that i hurt you (psychologically, i think), even though i didnt mean to. i know my intentions, and they are not what you think.
i guess apologies here wont seem sincere and wont help much, but im a coward. for now. i cant muster the courage to face the facts and the people that i have wronged. and for that, i feel sorry for myself.
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must understand that the only way i can help myself is to start doing properly. pay more attention, and stay ahead of what im saying/thinking/doing. either way, theres way too much room for improvement. buck up, daryl.
oh and marvin, referring to the replicas, it was just a casual comparison. there's no need to comment on it, or provide another comparison, because there isnt. and if the comparison offended you, sorry, esther.
session one of self-reflection since the meeting. bubbye.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
23:28 /
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season's over. finally can rest. and just nice i had to get my back muscle pulled. oh wells. but at least its getting better. and THEN came to full blast of flu. the whole family got it. the weekend spent with super sore throat. sucks.
first mugging session at tp lib with hlaf the team. i guess it went okay la, seeing as i finished some maths, asked some physics and taught some chem (surprise, since i FAILED. ><). but its not enough larh. need to do more self revision. and more self training. both physically and mentally. my mental willpower fails man. self-control is almost down to zero.
lol, super fun today. woke up at 12.30, had brunch, then went to do physics. my oscillations still needs help. and i stopped at 23! omg. i dont know how to calculate. then started playing mini car racing. this comp car racing game in which you kill other racers to get first. lol i pwned the ai's. then went to my uncle's house for dinner. crab. xD
the adults took one table while the kids and the adults that couldnt fit onto the first table took the second. the second table was a normal table, while the first was a round wooden table without its legs placed on top of a mahjong table. then halfway through the dinner, the whole mahjong table COLLAPSED. xD over loaded with food and dishes. and the funny thing was, NOTHING WAS BROKEN. no plates smashed, no dish cracked. all the adults somehow managed to react to the falling of the table even though it was so sudden. they all CARRIED IT. LOL. then the collapsed mahjong table was removed and all the chairs pushed under the wooden table. then they continued eating japanese style. xDD all those on the kids table were laughing our asses off. oh and nothing spilt that much too, only some curry got onto the table. the floor was spotless. o.O haha. miracles do happen! (i wish i got some photos down; seriously, its damn funny and amazing how the whole thing happened.)
oh, and my cousin-twice-removed is SUPER CUTE. haha she's 4, and her name's jewelle. pronounced joel. and she's like esther's 4-year-old replica. at least, i think she is. haha. the way she acts and her expressions and even her skin colour. and she refuses to do a high-five with me! T.T and she did it like 20-something times with my sister and cousin in front of me larh. >< suan. lol. again no photos.
finally remembered to let my littlest sister do marvin's group's survey form. lol. shall remember to bring it tomorrow.
oh, do we want a class gathering on the national day weekend? to emelyne's house in malaysia. yeah, getting a bus and all wont be easy, but just an idea. i can organise and all, but just to see if anyone wants to go first. if not no point. i wanna go. =)
lol marvin that was random. unfortunately i dont really tag in other people's blogs. i find myself a nuisance to other people, and like im contaminating their blog when i tag. (that means my blog is like totally a hazard. o.O) yeah, but if you want me to tag your/some-random-person's blog, then i would gladly do so anyway. =)
okay bubbye.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
00:03 /
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met some weird people on the bus today. an old 50+/60 year old man (i think, based on looks) with a dollar-coin in his ear, literally. a seemingly same age old lady who seems to think that she owns the bus, screaming at people to sit down on her seat when she got up and shouting to the driver that it was her stop after 2 more stops. didnt press the bell. and an sbs counter person who topped up $10 when i gave him $20. how nice.
dango dai kazoku is stuck in my head. but i dont mind. =D
enough for now, its super late. shall end with a music video, courtesy of wenjia. its super nice. at least, i think it is. and so does wenjia. mm.
oh, and marvin, you still can grow. jump and stretch more, and sleep more, since growth hormones are at their highest secretion levels when you are resting. i think. (hypocritical me again. oh wells.) anyway rest well la. and to the rest of the class too. get well soon esther.
JIA YOU. TOMORROW FINALS. ROOAAAARRR. (shant do the cheer here. sounds/looks weird.)
okay bubbye.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
23:59 /
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seriously la, after doing more research on the fastfood track, i realised that the best way to stop obesity is to kill the fastfood chains or kill their advertising or enforce some kind of rule that says eat-with-your-family-5-days-a-week-at-least or something, instead of simply encouraging people to eat at home. and wth is wrong with more pe lessons? its like we can all have fun learning new games/skills/randomstuffs while keeping healthy (the fun part at least for me la. i know of some who dont like sports. oh wells.), so why only once a week the moment you hit secondary school? moe should start mandatory daily pe, or at least twice a week la, to ensure health/fitness levels of students. plus, studies have shown that pe provides the brain with more blood and oxygen/nutrients, so education will have a much better efficiency level than what it has now. (although not for me. o.O) so pe is good. MORE SPORTS. MORE OUTDOORS. LESS INDOORS. and more greens/fruits in the canteen!
okay enough ranting about health. although i wanna scream more about my HEIGHT. WHICH HAS NOT INCREASED FOR THE PAST what 3 YEARS OR SO. wth la. stuck at 163-164cm. uber-shortness. sucks. lol. but what can i do, since i screwed up in sec 2. freak it.
blocks were totally shit. got back chem and maths so far, and phy mcq (didnt go on tue, so no econs results yet.) no need to announce to the world. feeling quite stressed out over schoolwork, since im not getting anything, and doing tutorials are almost the same as sitting at the table and staring at the paper. i know i need tuition, but i dont know whats wrong with me. i just dont feel like going. and my discipline levels still dropping. wth.
although nationals were quite good. hci/ny all 6 divs (a, b, c - boys/girls) all into finals! haha yayness. (although im still very sore, embarrassed and zibei-ing.) good luck to all once again! bedok stadium on wed, jia you! =D trip-gold? quad-gold? five golds? SIX GOLDS? WAHAHAHA. xD
so marvin suddenly wants to start learning harmoc. was asking me about the price and how to play it this weekend. although marvin, you should have gone to esther and kaiyuan what, why come to me? im noob. lol. (you did go to them, right?) haha and esther wants to start a band! haha pro pro. maybe kaiyuan can join up with beatbox, or liyi with erhu. lol mixed culture, east-west fusion! haha. anyway good luck!
okay sleepy time. its super late. bubbye.
p.s. note to self: positivity is your fourth strength. make it stay in your top 5. look for help NOW. you know you need it. stop thinking too much, and get down to it.
Thursday, July 03, 2008
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sucks. sabbats are over. i want the one week sabbats like in high school! T.T but oh well. at least it was FUN. xD yeah with anying and siyuan as the closer people i knew out of the 16 that went. made friends (or re-made) with yumeng, claire, rachel and caleane (i hope i spelled it right). yup. haha had half-dinner at subway with them yesterday after the sabbats ended. talked a lot, the 6 of us. >< MY MEMORY SUCKS. haha but had a lot of fun with them. =) windsurfing proficiency level 1! xDD
just broke the news about my oh-so-pro grades for maths and chem to my parents. made an agreement with me, so now my computer will be in their room after 11 pm. sucks. but oh well. its for my own good. need to buck up, as said by mrs chua.
going for the milk run this sunday! haha its for charity. although need to register la. but i think its free. and its crazy, i dont even know how far i have to run la. all i know is that its from 11am to 7pm. nice right. and running along singapore river. o.O oh wells. i hope i can recover in time for comps. OH. comps are like these few weeks. must get into finals. JIA YOU A TEAM (BOYS/GIRLS). =)
s73 people are getting kinda fun and weird. lol, kinda ironic. but yeah, to me its true. although some need to cheer themselves on (im being a hypocrite again. -.-), others to have more fun and smile more, and yet others who need to chill a bit, all of us seem to be okay. i finally made contact with several, although at a cost. but its an improvement, at least. =) oh and the new chem teacher is liyi's cousin's friend! haha heard from liyi that hes kinda strict and all, but only first lesson, so no idea. and pw st changed! from nirmala ong to ms teo, s71's bio teacher/ct. shes kinda funny, although cold at times, but relaxed at teaching. she says shes not critical (unlike nirmala), although being critical has its ups too. eom tomorrow. >< die. havent prepare. and surveys very far behind schedule. and MINI TRIAL OMG.
i guess thats all. although i still wanna play an rpg/mmorpg/mmog/adventure-fantasy/racing game. cant find new nice ones, and the rest are all on psp. no kaching to buy, and parents would never allow so long as im studying. sigh... never mind. i shall kope marvin's/yx's the moment hols come. WAHAHA.
(marvin) lol which movie you want to see?
(jon) lol you go run lor. i have to stop training le. and bey's crazy la, his speed and stamina are insane.
good luck emelyne and pekyee for your comps! (hopefully not too late) and jia you to the rest of us for everything else! xD
bubbye.