Tuesday, August 26, 2008

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mrs chua came back! haha marvin was super happy about it. something about having her to talk to again because... never mind. irrelevant.

econs was like "i dont know, so i crap" kinda thing.
chem was super easy, if you get my drift.
tomorrows waves = ><
and today my chem tutor (not mr ong) fell sick. so no tuition. wth.

my maths needs more practise, as usual. ap/gp was careless like siao. and the other assignment = X(. but i finally got an a! haha my lecture test 2 did not bad! xDD just maintain and improve the other topics. as well as the integration application and de.

this week was weird la. hope it gets better.

1 more month. im so not ready, but time waits for no man. einstein and newton and all the super geniuses/freaks out there have 24 hours like me. except i dont organise time well and they didnt have computers to type random thoughts. so i should stop here and go do my maths tutorial and phy revision.

quite a long update right? haha. random picture:

my sister drew this. materials: porcelain plate, dark sauce, toothpick. xD nice right?! haha.

okay bubbye.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

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OMG marvin has like 82 posts already la. (as of this post, at least.) must try and catch up. xD although there's like nothing much to blog about.. haha esther's tagboard suddenly like very lively.

SINGAPORE GOT SILVER FOR TABLETENNIS WOMEN'S. T.T oh wells.

and comps was shit for me. very shit.

havent completed pw. tomorrow doing a lot of stuff. maths gg. ><

I WANT MICROSOFT OFFICE 2007 or a MACBOOK. but im poor. saving up for some things. =D

free cell is fun, but i should probably stop wasting time here and continue work.

cornflakes and peanuts are nice. oatbars and honey are nice too. milk is good for your bones. avoid oil, salt, sugar and sauces when cooking meals as much as possible. exercise. doing light weights x many reps helps build strong bones and prevent osteoporosis. iron keeps away anaemia. fruits give you fibre and vitamins. tomatoes and chillies are rich in vitamin a. sleep helps you grow and recover. your muscles build up only when you are sleeping. protein comes from red meat; fish has both protein and omegas-3 and -6. the body probably has the highest absorption rate of omega-3 from tuna, including canned tuna. carbs from bread, rice and noodles are necessary for energy. when dieting, cut down to 2/3 of your usual portions, instead of skipping meals, and go cardio for exercises.

bubbye. =)

Saturday, August 16, 2008

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is it racist to choose a chinese barber over a malay one? i dont know. =S

haha friday was killer. xD
1. pe was rollerblading! =D
2. had fun in phy quarrelling over coffee. haha.
3. olympics-crazy recess!
4. ct session was a string quartet performance! nice songs. =)
5. pw preps were fun. haha insane enlin koped a carton of chocolate milk (24 bottles) + 5 extra bottles. and liyi helped with cutting paper shreds again. thankew! haha 10 hours cip? see if teacher allow first.
6. pw mini-trial! xDD

haha yeah. after school waited for a while, then emelyne enlin liyi and i took 67 to choa chu kang. liyi dropped off halfway, the rest (3) of us took to cck to change to 187. crazy la, carrying all those things. after liyi got off, we had 3 school bags, 1 carton, 1 bag of shredded paper and milk bottles, 3 boxes for games, enlin's camera, and survey forms. between the 3 of us. >< the hour-plus-long trip was kinda bleh. haha. but fun anyways.

we reached woodlands about 6 plus. dropped our things off, then went to buy foodstuffs from woodlands civic centre ntuc. and xueqin reached when we were at ntuc! whoops. so she stayed at the church and prepared the rooms. then emelyne went to buy dinner, so enlin and i returned to church first. helped xueqin finish up packing, then emelyne came back and the kids all came so start. enlin took attendance, then emelyne did pre-survey with the kids. then xueqin did the presentation and i did keyboard-pressing and camera while emelyne and enlin went to next door to prepare for games.

after presentation, enlin divided the kids into 4 groups of 5, then shepherded them to the next room. emelyne briefed them on the game, then they played: 1 healthy food = 5 points, 1 unhealthy food = -5 points. one poor group ended up with 5 points. =( but had 4 kids out of 5 at younger than 8-9 years, so it was okay. although the other groups got at least 40 points. >< then when emelyne was counting score with the kids, some went hyper and started shouting "不健康", so emelyne minus-ed marks off those who shouted. xDD point system rocks. haha.

then was drawing. haha when emelyne told them it was drawing time, they literally screamed la. had them occupied for about 15-20 minutes while emelyne prepared the food. then the drawings were collected, and enlin taught them the banana dance and we all danced with them. =D haha. then enlin had them go out group by group to wash hands and get food from emelyne while xueqin entertained them and i helped emelyne for a short while. then went back into the room to play the apples-and-bananas video and the iloveegg animation. kids are at their best with hands on some food and eyes on a screen. xD

haha they even asked for the videos again and again. and when i told them that i would add marks if they learnt the words, they actually started singing out loud! haha im horrible. xD but at least they were actually having fun. when they finished their food, emelyne tallied the score (group 1: 45 | 2: 80 | 3: 10 | 4: 75) and the winning group got 1 packet of apple juice per kid. then they went back, and we packed up and went home.

haha fun day. learnt some lessons about kids, but heck. xD photos next time. lazy. haha.

i wonder whats next for pw other than i&r, wr and op. oh wells. i want another mini-trial! haha this one was successful (the kids liked our games and the healthy food. yeah!), so somehow improve on this one and make the whole thing better!

haha next time. now sleepy time. tomorrow got pesta sukan. >< i hope i last longer this time. jia you everyone! =)

bubbye.

Monday, August 11, 2008

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just something random.

i dont know if its just me or whatever, but i've recently felt quite envious of other people. not that i dont like my current life; heck, i feel im super fortunate to be born into my family. but its just...

i guess i've been feeling lonely when im at home. books, tutorials, tv, computer, food, sisters, piano, fresh air, exercise... its routine to me already. i know my grades arent that good, so i should spend more time on my books and tutorials, but im tired of them. i just want someone not in my immediate family to talk to. im just so envious of those who have classmates or schoolmates who live like walking distance away, so they go home together, spend time playing or talking or simply doing stuff together.

thats probably one reason why i go to school. despite tests and exams and grades, theres all these great people all around me, talking, laughing, accompanying me through the hectic school life. they go through thick and thin with you (almost all, i guess), and make fun of you, laugh at and with you, eat with you, spend time working with you... its enough to dispel all the misgivings you once had about the academic world.

to me, friends are like the family you never had (cliched, but that sums it up), and one you can mess around with. this family, of mixed blood and name, share your moments in school, be it happy, sad, funny, embarrassing, thoughtful, angry, disappointing, euphoric... (cant think of any more adjectives) whatever the case is, i kinda wanna spend more time with whoever i call a friend. i dont like the way im going home now: sometimes with earphones in my ears, sometimes with a book or paper in my hands, sometimes sleeping, sometimes stoning...

i guess i really am selfish. after all, how many times have i hurt others whom i refer to as my friends? some probably dont even see me as a person they want to recognise/know, and others just resign to their fate of having known me as an acquaintance. maybe i dont even have the right to call some people my friends, given all my previous deeds and all.

and yet someone told me never to put myself down as i have just done. another told me to have more confidence in myself. a third ordered me never to apologise to him/her, since i had done so too many times before (quote: "stop being so generous with your apologies; they wont be sincere if you are so used to giving them away."). people were there when i felt horrible at myself. people saved me from hitting myself unconscious during my "self-harm" period. people have sat down beside me, listening to me rant out my feelings, and, simply, listen.

i have always wanted to be a listening ear, to help someone with his/her problems, but i never seem to be able to render myself useful in any way. i try to lend a hand to whoever/whatever i think needs help, and yet either the situation doesnt require me/my help, or i fail to see a situation that requires me/my help. i want to help so bad, and yet i feel so helpless. but these people always refuse to let me feel bad, telling me that i am needed elsewhere, or they wouldnt want to intrude on me, and ask me to go and complete my homework and not waste my time.

i thank them. i thank you. i guess friends are always there for when you need them, no matter for what reason. friends, and anyone closer, are near you for a reason. i dont believe that there isnt a reason for you to live. the moment you came to this world, you made someone happy. (obvious, and true, but many dont see it.) i love all those around me, be it sibling-love, friendship-love, kinship-love, or whatever you can think of.

i just wish that someone stayed near me, or someone that stayed near me became a close acquaintance. even though i know that this wish would probably never come true (unless i take the initiative to talk to someone/anyone/my neighbours), i still hold hope to myself. i just want someone to talk to in the flesh, beside me, whom i can listen to as well, and not just be and output source. i wanna help.

if you have been patient enough to read through the whole blog, i sincerely thank you. even though i have no idea why you would want to read through my whole entry. i just thought of close friends, and was thinking why i have none so much so that any girl i talk to for several days makes her someone i like more than just a friend.

thats all for now. reflection number 2 since the meeting, even though this probably would pull my grades down even lower. but im a people person; i care. i want to care, to help. i need social interaction as well, like everyone else, not just simple black-and-white and writing and calculations.

i just wish for someone who can let me know that i am liked for who i am, for my flaws and my strengths (if there are any to be found). but that would be asking too much already.

bubbye. =|

Sunday, August 10, 2008

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looks kinda familiar, doesnt it? like it appeared on someone's blog... yeah, i was there too, on a different day. and i didnt even know anyone else from my class would go. *shrugs*


mrs toh and baby ray! xDD super cute! haha he kept playing with his basketball socks.

2 photos for now. finally tried posting photos. found that it takes a super long time to upload. maybe i should try other way/means to post pics... heck, too lazy. xD but i havent been able to take photos of our class lately. T.T capture more shots next time. and i thought i had a photo of jewelle smiling like crazy, but i cant find it... oh wells.

haha okay next time ba.

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i really dont wanna screw grade 8 again. i wanna do a charlene or esther or liyi or zijie or enlin-to-be. i wanna PASS. PLEASE. >< i dont have time again next year, or the year after, or the year after that. seriously.

HAHA i changed blogskin! xDD i dont know if you reading this finds it nice, but its quite good to me at least. although the fonts are on the small side, but i dont really mind. and im not going to change the font size to bigger. =)

the past few weeks were kinda crazy for me. had to see teachers, draw up plans for myself, go for extra consultations, sat study sessions (which work. yay. xD), more back trouble, more conflicts, sudden crazes... i dont know, but it wasnt really smooth for me (or anyone else, for that matter. heck, i probably had it easier than some others.).

nat hols are here! haha the last stretch of rest before teachers day/sept hols, then mugging (><) time continues. oh wells. but at least some crazy stuff happened. haha. 07s7c were crazy up in the middle of the hall during the singing part, and 08s6q were insane, jumping and singing like there wouldnt be another nat day celebrations in hc. xDD and my sister got her flag confiscated 5 times and ultimately broken within 1 hour of getting it larh! haha. result of irritating her friends with constant flag-waving in front of their faces. funny. =D

then after celebrations the mutilation group and my group went to do pw; i think most of the rest went home. poor kaiyuan, had to complete the bio ilp test after his performance. haha i didnt see him on stage at all! -.- and enlin made her first appearance within dunno how many days of joining harmoc. fast. even though she wasnt playing the harmoc, and we (i, at least) couldnt hear the piano. >< but it was nice. =)

went to enlins house to continue our pw thingys. emelyne's arts prowess completely owns mine any time, and same goes with enlins computer mastery. xD seriously, emelyne can draw on the comp la. haha. her pot of boiling water was cute. and i managed to design some of our mascots! (which i need to send to the rest of the group and i promtpy forgot until now. crap.) and our food shuttle's almost complete, left the card printing and mixing of box contents. yayness. xD

her place super far larh. -.- took quite long to get home (shorter than expected, though) and met some random people on the way back. there was this group of guys trying to hit on 2 girls, and this 4 year old boy who screamed when he lost his balance playing with his brother. >< and i fell asleep standing again. sucks. luckily this time didnt fall. and surprisingly when i woke up i was literally dripping in perspiration. o.O dunno how that happened. blehh.

got home and helped prepare for my dad's dinner. his new work team came over for dinner and to warm up more. all of them are damn funny, the things they do. like adults with children's hearts, but only for that night. I MISSED THE SINGAPORE CONTINGENT IN THE OLYMPICS OPENING T.T. and the one kid that came over played with my sister. crazy naughty la, that boy. climb all over the furniture and bring drinks upstairs. he didnt dare look at me after one time. probably scared him somehow. lol.

today supposed to get up early and study, but woke up at 11am instead. >< had brunch, watched some olympics, then did some reading. did random stuffs like fixing a broken bullclip and listening to radio, then fast forward to dinner and more reading and now here. half a weekend gone. NOOOO.

ehh emelyne and i were thinking of organising an outing during the sept hols. wed, going jurong for iceskating, then maybe lunch and a movie. all tentative, but we want to have a gathering then. please keep that wed free for our class outing. =) and more ideas! direct to activity i/cs or welfare reps.

haha thanks jon for the national day greeting/wish. and yeah, i read your blog marvin. nice change, although maybe you should try something else. like me. xD

please leave your comments about the new blogskin. even though i dont think i'll have time to change to another one, if there are too many negatives, i would try to find a better one, or revert back to the old one, which i hope i dont have to see again. xD

bubbye.

~ wth. and im supposed to be a Healer, a people-person. funny how things work out.

and i still want to see her again. to talk to her, to see her smile... but i guess its not really possible at this point of time. i just hope, selfishly, that she isnt taken yet, but i guess all i can wish for is for her to be happy.