Saturday, March 13, 2010

23:21 / 0 comments

exactly one week. wow.

yes i made mistakes. i know i didnt read instructions clearly. but there isnt a point in constantly repeating my mistake over and over again. trying to prove that im wrong 4 times over is redundant.

if you feel that there isnt a point in seeing a group of people that you knew for 2 years and have taken time to come out, or in thanking people who have helped you over the past 2 years, then dont even bother showing up. coming all the way then saying you'd rather be somewhere else defeats the organiser completely. or co-organiser, for that matter.

i want to change my ways and become better, and to make attempts to know you all again, but somehow i feel rebuffed and turned away from. sensitivity is a stupid thing, and emotions shouldnt get priority, but it just cant be helped.

all in all, for now, i'll try to go on doing what i have been trying to do, but i cant even guarantee myself that i'll last this way. hopefully the future will give me opportunities to forge better links. stronger bonds. with those who simply can understand.

and thank you for knowing that i still exist in some part of this world, and accepting me for who i am.

Saturday, March 06, 2010

00:04 / 0 comments

did much better than expected. really quite happy. =D

but some of the rest didn't get the grades they want. it's really quite disheartening, but i don't know what to say that could help them. being unable to help doesn't feel good, but someone told me that in this case, just let it go, since nothing much can really be done. grah.

feeling quite tired again, although may be cos of lack of sleep and boredom-overdose at work. then again, i think it's just my mental state being weak.

i really need to work out. period.

bubbye.