Sacrificial Damage.

2010-03-13T23:21:00.003+08:00

exactly one week. wow.

yes i made mistakes. i know i didnt read instructions clearly. but there isnt a point in constantly repeating my mistake over and over again. trying to prove that im wrong 4 times over is redundant.

if you feel that there isnt a point in seeing a group of people that you knew for 2 years and have taken time to come out, or in thanking people who have helped you over the past 2 years, then dont even bother showing up. coming all the way then saying you'd rather be somewhere else defeats the organiser completely. or co-organiser, for that matter.

i want to change my ways and become better, and to make attempts to know you all again, but somehow i feel rebuffed and turned away from. sensitivity is a stupid thing, and emotions shouldnt get priority, but it just cant be helped.

all in all, for now, i'll try to go on doing what i have been trying to do, but i cant even guarantee myself that i'll last this way. hopefully the future will give me opportunities to forge better links. stronger bonds. with those who simply can understand.

and thank you for knowing that i still exist in some part of this world, and accepting me for who i am.

2010-03-06T00:04:00.002+08:00

did much better than expected. really quite happy. =D

but some of the rest didn't get the grades they want. it's really quite disheartening, but i don't know what to say that could help them. being unable to help doesn't feel good, but someone told me that in this case, just let it go, since nothing much can really be done. grah.

feeling quite tired again, although may be cos of lack of sleep and boredom-overdose at work. then again, i think it's just my mental state being weak.

i really need to work out. period.

bubbye.

2010-02-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

last day of the lunar new year. acknowledged 1 reader to my blog. not bad, considering it was revived only yesterday.

went for 15th day reunion at my uncle's place. ate, talked, mahjong. highlight: youngest sister (11) and 2 cousins of my cousin (10 and 6, if i'm not mistaken) were playing with sparklers. the next moment, we saw smoke and 2 police officers standing beside them. playing with fire with no adults supervising, and vandalism. ran down from 2nd floor to help clear up the mess, literal and metaphorical. another cousin helped. went up and realised i broke a porcelain cup when i ran down. 3 kids were screwed by respective parents.

there you have it. a fun zheng yue shi wu.

bubbye.

2010-02-28T01:04:00.002+08:00

been waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too long.

short post.

1) fed up with myself. realised that i'm more confused than i first thought.

2) knows that guys, including myself, are superficial no matter how not superficial they (or i) say they (or i) are (am) not.

3) witnessed first-hand 2 teens running from a cab without paying. and didn't manage to stop them. and having the nagging feeling of not being able to do anything then. cos i could have stopped them with my dad if we had tried, just that my brain and reflexes were (and still are) super slow. gotta train.

yup. wanted to get these things down as soon as i could. okay, not so long post.

bubbye for now. hopefully will be back for more soon.

2008-11-07T22:21:00.002+08:00

somehow blogger's fonts are screwing up. or maybe just for me. and im finally updating again. seems like no one reads it, except for marvin. lol. heck... if this blog dies it dies... =)

monday:

op. was okay, fun, etc. the external moderator (was he?) was laughing at POW's presentation, although i have no idea why. especially since their presentation (and all the other 3 groups) was (were) quite good. he's weird.. then i psp-ed. xD finally! haha thankew peggy! hijacked the psp for like almost the whole day after my presentation. brave story is quite fun, although takes a hell long to advance with my pace.

then we went to find pizza! haha marvin and emelyne were like bringing a cake to the lt first for anying's birthday. then we sang and celebrated. OH before that sheryl and enlin were like playing catching in the ava room. and anying changed in there la. -.- hiding, of course. and esther and liyi were trying out the piano, and sheryl after she got tired of running from enlin. jon brought his guitar from somewhere, and played along to "can you feel the love tonight" with sheryl and/or liyi and/or esther, i cant remember. and the guys were fooling around, me included. then boxun started playing bridge with emelyne and esther and someone whom my memory cannot recall right now. ><

then pizza! haha marvin and i went to collect at the canteen with mr chow. then he came back to outside ava room to eat with us! haha anying's insane la. its her birthday anyway. xD so the cameras were spammed, and choonchuan got called in twice to help us take photos. then we ate and cleared the place, and played more inside before moving to lt2 for the real thing because ava room power was cut.

sang/played like crazy in lt2. if teachers even passed by outside we would break the record of class demerit points. guys killed my keyboard with lf2, esther sophia enlin anying emelyne sheryl all going for the mike, liyi emelyne pekyee all over the cards and bridge/daidi. then halfway through charlene crashed. and then left quite soon after that. then at around 3 plus 4 emelyne left for training, the the girls left, then all left. haha yayness day. =)

went home and slept. too tired (probably mentally) after the thing happened. and even though i dont like how it turned out, im okay. i will try to make it better, hopefully make it work out even. but for now... yeah, it did hurt after a while, but i dont know...

cant remember what happened on tuesday. probably in too much of a daze due to monday.

wednesday:

went back for training! doctor said no judo, but heck, i went for pt. and found out that i was seriously unfit. pushed like crazy for only 15 minutes and then started tasting my breakfast with other stuffs. not good. rested, then tried continuing, but failed. pt finished, wanted to leave, but stayed in the end, to the end of training. practised some small techniques, no contact, and blahs. finished training, ate lunch with guys team, went back. and encountered the coldest rainy day i have seen yet. even the exhausts were condensing steam. quite cool. and saw lihong on the bus. she went to kk. good luck with whatever it is she was going for.

thursday:

acres. how i felt doesnt matter. what matters is that 4 people turned up: kianmin, kaiyuan, bey and me. made our way there by bus and walking a hell of a distance, then reached, and waited another hour. apparently the people had told me the wrong time. anyway after that we got our shirts (those who didnt come couldnt get.) and went for a short tour around the place, then started work. split into 3 groups, we were in the third group doing a structure for creepers to grow on. basically 2 hours of measuring, hammering and sawing, then water break, then erected the structure. didnt like their way of working, but at least we got the whole thing up and standing finally. took group photos, got volunteer forms, then left the place.

went to lot one for lunch with the guys. had kfc (#$%&) and sorts, then walked around, looked at music cds and sports apparel, then left. took train down to novena for checkup at nsc, met mum and sisters there. went through appointment, then went to ttsh to look for eye doctor, then waited for dad, then had dinner at square 2, then went grocerying at ntuc, then went home.

today:

nothing much. wanted to go jogging, but my headache said otherwise. practised piano, played some games, watched some tv, ate my meals, tried doing some physics, had piano lesson, informed class about cip, talked to some people, asked dad some stuffs, and now im here blogging.

yay, you just read through one week of my life (that i actually remembered.) and are still alive and not blind. congrats.

anyway somethings happened this week that were not the best of events, and didnt go as expected (by me or by anyone else too.). feeling a bit down, but im still alive and kicking, although... yeah. thanks for those who helped me. cant name them, else something may stir up again. but still, thanks.

so now for the weird quiz that liyi tagged me for. removed all jap songs for simplicity's sake.

1. Put your music player on shuffle mode.

2.Press forward for each question.

3.Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. no cheating.

4.With your answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

5.Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?

光良 - 勇气

(that's weird... maybe so. been feeling this way since monday. guess i need some help.)

Will you get far in life?

183club - 真爱

(EHH. i know love makes the world go round, but my life? o.O it doesnt make sense. heck. hope it does soon. wait, this is a quiz, not some prophecy. bleagh.)

How do your friends see you?

林俊杰 - 进化论

(EHH again. why would they view me as evolution? maybe those from my primary school. they have seen me transit and change my personality again and again... but those right now? haha maybe i did change over this year... but evolution seems too big a word to use.)

Will you get married?

陶喆 - 是是非非

(at least it would be clear when it gets down to it.)

What is your best friend's theme song?

七朵花 - 我只想要

(...)

What is the story of your life?

周杰伦 - 你听得到

(i do try to make myself heard, and i always try to listen to others. but there's more to it...)

What was high school like?

五月天 - 武装

(everyone IS guarding themselves, always shielding their true feelings and emotions, as well as hiding behind while attacking others. it may be invisible, it may be clear to the rest around, but there's always something there preparing anyone for battle. yeah, its high school.)

How can you get ahead in life?

孙燕姿 - Venus

(now this really makes no sense. unless im going to be an astronaut and make it to venus, or we all have to emigrate off earth due to pollution, and i so happen to travel to venus. that OR i can get really far, then burn myself badly, or suffocate in carbon dioxide. wow.)

What's the best thing about your friends?

Lucas Grabreel, Monique Coleman - Bop to the Top

(this is SO DARN relevant. heck, im in the only trip sci class in hcjc. heck, im in the best class there is. heck, all in this class are so freaking good in what they do/wanna do. heck, whoever i knew is now in a super pro position. heck, whoever i have as a friend is pro. xD)

What's in store for this weekend?

周华健 - 雨人

(so... im going to be the rain man this weekend? maybe its just going to rain and rain and rain. and then rain some more. mm. i love the rain. so never mind. heh.)

Describe your grandparents.

S.H.E. - Remember

(this one is scary... yeah, i miss them. and the only grandparent i have, my paternal grandmother, i wish her the best of health, and hope she recovers soon, if at all. damn it hurts.)

How's your life going?

98 Degrees, Stevie Wonder - True to your Heart

(i am, and still am, and will still be. =))

What song will they play at your funeral?

五月天 - 忘词

(i dont even wanna think about it.)

How does the world see you?

Alvin and the Chipmunks - The Girls of Rock and Roll

(NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... *collapses on the floor, writhing, twitching, foams at the mouth*)

Will you have a happy life?

陶喆 - 忘不了

(one that i'll remember forever. yup. hopefully. =))

Do people secretly lust after you?

Elvis Presley - (You're the) Devil in Disguise

(dont puke. your computer will spoil, and you will die from the electrical shocks. mine almost did, and im lucky i survived.)

How can you make yourself happy?

S.H.E. - 天灰

(i DO like the rain (and playing in it)... xD)

What should you do with your life?

林俊杰 - 不死之身

(immortality. i wish. yet maybe not.)

Will you ever have children?

S.H.E. - Watch Me Shine

(this sounds totally wrong. seriously.)

What song would you strip to?

陶喆 - 夜来香

(literally, no. play it while im going to take a bath/change, maybe.)

What does your mum think of you?

周杰伦 - 女孩别为我哭泣

(HAHAHA! maybe she knows me better than i think.)

What song would be played at your wedding?

孙燕姿 - 坏天气

(nahh... better songs to be played. nice song though. xD)

tags x5.

1. anying.

2. yx.

3. sheryl.

4. jon.

5. mr ong wei jian.

thankew. and dont ask why i tagged the above people. i have no idea.

done, so bubbye.

2008-10-28T23:12:00.002+08:00

marvin partially true la. haha. i think this blog can die soon. >< cant really think of what to write. hence im actually doing the bloody long quiz from liyi.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other tags!:

1. yx.

2. jy.

3. nic.

4. sp.

5. sheryl.

6. anying.

7. enlin. (what liyi said.)

8. i have no idea who else to tag. the rest all do already.

01. What have you been doing recently?

op, school, games, sleep, eat, prepare some tech stuffs.

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?

never. it just dies when there's no more battery.

03. What happened at 10.00am today?

a lot of things. i ended up playing freecell and listening to music while enlin was doing the ppt and xueqin was studying with jiali and emelyne was eating with pekyee and liyi was in the library and anying and her friend came along and i dont know where the rest are.

04. When did you last cry?

long ago. funeral.

05. Believe in fate/destiny?

guess so.

06. What do you want in your life right now?

self-discipline and control. and self-esteem.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?

no umbrella. my hair repels water, according to kaiyuan.

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?

me.

09. What bottom are you wearing now?shorts?

grey shorts.

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?

"happy birthday!"

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?

no idea.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?

no.

13. What was the last movie you caught?.....

mission impossible 2. at home. its a movie, so it counts right? if not... i cant remember. ><

14. What are you proud of?

my parents. =)

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?

"haha i only can do if i jump then inch my head forward :p yay okay if you don't find it boring :)" my vj friend whom i met in sec 3, talking about vertical pull-ups and her guitar concert. miss her. ><

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?

no idea. some lin jun jie song playing from enlin's selection, in school.

17.Do you have any nicknames?

obviously.

18. What does your last received text message say?

"Haha mayb u can suggest them sum outfit then if they dun wan then nvm lor XD u decide w marvin lar!" the author is unmistakable. talking about tomorrow's fac outing, guys' outfits. cos girls decided on dress/skirts. final decision: none made.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?

around 12 plus.

20. Are you currently happy?

probably. o.O

21. Who gives you best advice?

everyone? i just selectively listen and follow. ><

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?

sometimes. =)

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?

no one.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?

yeah. my eye. right eye. and my multiple blisters.

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?

liyi. her blog. this quiz.

26. Do you wear toe socks?

no.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?

my mum.

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?

probably.

29. What annoys you most in a person?

a super negative mentality to match/that surpasses mine.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?

yeah. its 'did', not 'do'.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?

funny.

32. What is the colour of your room?

blue and white and multi-coloured.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?

no. just me is enough.

34. Do you believe in the saying : talk is cheap?

yeah. but i do it quite often. ><

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?

me.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?

havent done that in ages. ><

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?

even worse/longer than above.

38. Do you have a life?

sometimes. right now, no. but that's social. otherwise i wouldnt be doing something like this.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?

yeah. dreams can be too life-like. scary...

40. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?

no idea.

41. Last time you smiled?

less than 10 minutes ago.

42. Have you changed this year?

yeah. quite a bit.

43. What are you listening right now?

the bus rolling past outside my house and my keyboard tapping.

44. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?

no.

45. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?

open. except for times when i try to train my eyes and end up getting motion sickness. ><

46. what do u look for in the opposite sex?

a nice heart and personality. someone who can help me change.

47. Is there a quote you live by?

always keep your words. + determination.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?

i think so... no idea.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?

yeah. recorders rule. the past.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?

all ideas are still ideas. to me at least. so none.

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?

op.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?

dont have one.

53. What song best describe your love life?

twinkle twinkle little star.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?

i dont know... guess not.

55. Who always make you laugh?

anyone can make me laugh. =)

56. Do you speak other language other than English?

yeah.

57. Favourite website(s)?

smb. actually strike that. none.

58. What's your middle name?

none.

59. What are you doing tomorrow?

sleep, lecture, play tennis (hopefully), eat lunch, fac outing, laptop stuffs.

60. What do you think you are like?

i'll leave this for you to think about when you read my quiz.

61. Who will you choose to die with?

why on earth would i want someone to die when i die? i dont want other people to die with me. they should die before me. so they wont suffer when i die.

62. Where have you been today?

school.

63. What game do you play often?

genre = racing/driving or (mmo)rpg.

64. Who are you missing right now?

no one in particular.

65. If you have to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?

neither. i would just go home to my parents. yeah, im weak.

66. What are you doing right now?

quiz, printing stuffs for xueqin.

67. Which primary school are you from?

peichun public.

68. Name 3 colours that you like?

silver. chrome. white.

69. What emotion do you like to show?

joy? no idea.

70. What is your life to you?

something to colour in with family, relatives and friends.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?

usually just keep it in. until i lose myself and start self-mutilating then MAYBE tell selected people. and yes i used to self-mutilate. NOT by cutting.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?

jon. about class outing and fac outing.

73. Who do you admire most?

my dad. =)

74. Which month are you born in?

april.

75. How are you feeling right now?

sleepy. crap, liyi, you made me yawn when you typed yawn here. -.-

76. What is the time now?

23:55. dont oversleep tomorrow.

77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?

insane, crazy, zi-high, fun, optimistic. =)

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?

dont dye your hair. esther knows why.

79. Why are you doing this test?

i have no idea why i listened to instructions on a computer screen.

80. What do you do when you're moody

listen to music, stone, read, sleep, exercise.

81. At which age you wish to get married?

let me find a 对象 first.

82. Who is more important to you?

all my loved ones. primarily my immediate family.

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?

find all the people who have made an impact in my life. thank s73. thank teachers. thank relatives. spend the rest of my time with my parents (and maybe selected people?).

84. Who is the person you trust the most?

myself.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?

yeah. scientifically proven. sorry.

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?

not telling.

87. What is your goal for this year?

to keep to my goals for next year, since this year is ending.

88.Do you believe in eternity love?

no, but probably eternal love.

89. What feeling do you love most?

genuine appreciation for who i really am.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?

yeah. quiz too long, author dunno what question to write already is it?

91. What feeling do you hate most?

i cant say i hate hatred the most, because that would be contradictory. cant remember what dr richard arnold taught us. ><

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

yes. but i dont know how to maintain them.

93. Do you believe in God?

i dont know.

94. Who cares for you most?

my family, i guess.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

my values as a person.

96. What will you bring when you fight?

my brains.

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?

many stuff. top on the list: making my parents mad.

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?

nothing. i'd be dead by then.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?

break up.

100. How do you feel now?

that i probably wasted quite a bit of my time on this quiz. many errors.. but heck. its a nice thing to do, and helped me reflect.

completed a 100 question quiz. funny man. my parents would kill me if they knew i was doing these kinds of stuff... have to sleep now. good night.

エメィン。僕は何をしていますか。うああああ…　今は考えない。混乱します。
シエン、読んでいるんだったら、誰も話せないでください。お願いね。

bubbye.

2008-10-22T22:24:00.002+08:00

BLOG UPDATE.

OMG its been like almost 3 weeks since i last touched this blog la. haha thanks to 3 people for 3 tags. xDD shows why i shouldnt even keep this blog alive...

but alive it shall remain. no matter how sad it is. xD who cares anyway. haha...

THANKS 08S73 for helping me in whatever way for the past week. =)
special mention to marvin, kaiyuan, bey, zijie, jon, enlin and jiali(!) for visiting me last fri (17/10) and the rest for bringing me the fruits and homework (><). all eaten by family already. xD (haha emelyne's small apple!)
special mention to charlene for keeping in contact and supporting me throughout too. cant bear to open the gift. ><
thanks mrs chua for calling on my mum. =)
and THANKS to anyone else whom i forgot. heh.

anyway whether my op is a success of not still depends. the surgery itself was successful, obviously, and so far no infection setting in *touch wood*. all thats left is training my eye to look straight once more. but seems quite difficult leh. >< still hurts.

lol for op details i shall refrain from typing here. want details ask me directly. and for goodness' sake my eye was NOT removed from its socket, nor was my face but open to operate on the eye, nor will i fully recover all my eyesight.

oh and i get motion sickness by using the operated eye only and trying to walk. =S not a good feeling. mum scolded me for trying that out. lol.

no sports for another 3 weeks. and even then light sports only. T.T

PW WR finally handed in. word count and cd left to hand in. yeah i know my group's kinda late, but we did try our best to hand in on time... my fault, kay? yeah, i didnt manage to complete my tasks sufficiently enough, and had to redo them. plus my 3+ days off didnt help much too. but at least we are done. and our (my) op (part) still isnt doing too well. i cant memorise my lines, and im like super nervous even when practising. gg.

school's almost out. and next year's a killer year. dunno whats going to happen to our class, with h3 and dropping and downgrading and (possible) upgrading of subjects.

二月の時間に、スポツしない。困難な時間ね。でも僕は心配しない、友達があるんですから。
今の感情に当惑する。エメリンへの感情は普通か。本当に解りません…

im thinking that there should be a number of grammatical errors or whatnot in there, but its the best i can do now. im still learning! haha.

okay i'll think of more interesting things to blog about next time. for now, no more. bubbye. =)

~

enlin: LOL yeah i know. figured that out while recovering in hospital bed. xD
liyi: xD
marvin: updated. yeah i have nothing much to say and my life isnt that all interesting... >< plus i dont know what to write about.

2008-10-02T19:46:00.002+08:00

i have no idea what the hell im actually doing online. after the past 4 weeks or so of self-ostracizing online i finally came online. and right before the craziest paper of the whole year. how nice. >< pretty much screwed.

unprepared for bio. havent memorised much. not caring about the past few papers. looking forward to tomorrow. die and then somehow get revived again within 3 hours. weird.

"when things go wrong, take a right turn."
"dont think it. laugh it."
"see a wall in your path, dont stop. find a way to climb over it, walk around it, or crawl under it, and get past it finally."

dont ask why im writing down all these.

contemplated calling someone, but then decided against it. probably be a disaster anyway.

check-up next thursday (9th). op on the 15th. hope it goes well, and also that i can go for the next op next year.

which means no more making the team next year. and no more colours. >< but i shall work harder and try to stay in there. 1 last year to stay in hcibs and win the big silver thingy! xD

yup. bubbye.

~

僕はいつも "ここにいるよ" と思います。でも、今、僕はぜんぜん無力なので…

2008-09-04T10:05:00.002+08:00

i bet half the world is pissed at me right now. i really wanted the whole thing to go well, but i didnt expect all these to happen. i know, its all my fault. im sorry. today shouldnt have been how today was.

google chrome browser isnt as good as they say it to be. loading some pages take longer even, although on average its still faster. and you cant even change fonts or font size in blogger using chrome. had to switch back to firefox (yeah!) just to type this blog entry. change or not, its up to you. there are some interesting features with chrome, though...

and at least there's maf to look forward to. quote cj: "Please dont rain on saturday... please". although i couldnt really care less if it was wet or not. xD i love the rain. =)

bubbye.

2008-09-03T14:07:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just want to scream out somewhere and not care about anything in this world.
sometimes i just want to go skating/walking along east coast, enjoying the wind and relaxing.
sometimes i just want to sleep and sleep and sleep.
sometimes i just want to play and laugh with friends/cousins/family.
sometimes i just want to read books. many books.
sometimes i just want to go ask teachers stuff that are unrelated to what we are learning.
sometimes i just want to go explore areas of interest in learning, and not stick to the bloody syllabus.
sometimes i just want to score good grades and make my parents and teachers proud.
sometimes i just want to talk to certain random people about random things.
sometimes i just want to leave this world and never come back/come back as a different (better) person.

and sometimes its just great being me. *sigh*

~

teachers day was fun! haha. people were random-er than usual. saw a different side of certain individuals, and the files were actually completed on time la! haha thanks to eme and liyi for the bulk of the work. now for the seniors... ><

and i had a weird dream la. one that i should not have told anyone, and one that i should not have had in the first place. but it still came. heck, who can control what they dream? and i still dont know what it means, although i dont think that i want to know what it means anyway. maybe im afraid of facing reality, being a coward and all.

i should have been mugging like crazy over the past few days, but i've completed only that little bit. im really scared for promos la. so what the heck am i still blogging here!? haha never mind. take a short break. rant out some feelings first.

went to marvins house yesterday after mugging at bishan library and lunch. completed some waves and bacteria (phy and bio). then went to his house and watched some anime and played with his (ultra-zi-high) dog. insane one. kept jumping and climbing onto me, licked me everywhere (including inside my nose. xD), then jump off me and try to get on again. like never tired one leh. haha then i played like 2 hours of kingdom hearts. >< lost 2 hours of studying time. haha but i went back and mugged more after that. lol thanks marvin for the time and the shelter during the rain! =)

tomorrow's the class outing. but its like not many people are going. for one, liyi cant make it, due to reasons. then the guys probably wouldnt want to go anyway. havent heard from emelyne nor anyone else, for that matter. only know that esther should be going, with sophia, i guess. and probably marvin. and mr ong. lol. but what class gathering is this... never mind. i'll just be hopeful and go for this one, and be more hopeful and organise another one after promos. i heard someone talking about a chalet...

half the week is gone. promos looming closer than ever. anxiety building up. JIA YOU everyone.

bubbye. =)

2008-08-26T20:48:00.003+08:00

mrs chua came back! haha marvin was super happy about it. something about having her to talk to again because... never mind. irrelevant.

econs was like "i dont know, so i crap" kinda thing.
chem was super easy, if you get my drift.
tomorrows waves = ><
and today my chem tutor (not mr ong) fell sick. so no tuition. wth.

my maths needs more practise, as usual. ap/gp was careless like siao. and the other assignment = X(. but i finally got an a! haha my lecture test 2 did not bad! xDD just maintain and improve the other topics. as well as the integration application and de.

this week was weird la. hope it gets better.

1 more month. im so not ready, but time waits for no man. einstein and newton and all the super geniuses/freaks out there have 24 hours like me. except i dont organise time well and they didnt have computers to type random thoughts. so i should stop here and go do my maths tutorial and phy revision.

quite a long update right? haha. random picture:

my sister drew this. materials: porcelain plate, dark sauce, toothpick. xD nice right?! haha.

okay bubbye.

2008-08-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

OMG marvin has like 82 posts already la. (as of this post, at least.) must try and catch up. xD although there's like nothing much to blog about.. haha esther's tagboard suddenly like very lively.

SINGAPORE GOT SILVER FOR TABLETENNIS WOMEN'S. T.T oh wells.

and comps was shit for me. very shit.

havent completed pw. tomorrow doing a lot of stuff. maths gg. ><

I WANT MICROSOFT OFFICE 2007 or a MACBOOK. but im poor. saving up for some things. =D

free cell is fun, but i should probably stop wasting time here and continue work.

cornflakes and peanuts are nice. oatbars and honey are nice too. milk is good for your bones. avoid oil, salt, sugar and sauces when cooking meals as much as possible. exercise. doing light weights x many reps helps build strong bones and prevent osteoporosis. iron keeps away anaemia. fruits give you fibre and vitamins. tomatoes and chillies are rich in vitamin a. sleep helps you grow and recover. your muscles build up only when you are sleeping. protein comes from red meat; fish has both protein and omegas-3 and -6. the body probably has the highest absorption rate of omega-3 from tuna, including canned tuna. carbs from bread, rice and noodles are necessary for energy. when dieting, cut down to 2/3 of your usual portions, instead of skipping meals, and go cardio for exercises.

bubbye. =)

2008-08-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

is it racist to choose a chinese barber over a malay one? i dont know. =S

haha friday was killer. xD
1. pe was rollerblading! =D
2. had fun in phy quarrelling over coffee. haha.
3. olympics-crazy recess!
4. ct session was a string quartet performance! nice songs. =)
5. pw preps were fun. haha insane enlin koped a carton of chocolate milk (24 bottles) + 5 extra bottles. and liyi helped with cutting paper shreds again. thankew! haha 10 hours cip? see if teacher allow first.
6. pw mini-trial! xDD

haha yeah. after school waited for a while, then emelyne enlin liyi and i took 67 to choa chu kang. liyi dropped off halfway, the rest (3) of us took to cck to change to 187. crazy la, carrying all those things. after liyi got off, we had 3 school bags, 1 carton, 1 bag of shredded paper and milk bottles, 3 boxes for games, enlin's camera, and survey forms. between the 3 of us. >< the hour-plus-long trip was kinda bleh. haha. but fun anyways.

we reached woodlands about 6 plus. dropped our things off, then went to buy foodstuffs from woodlands civic centre ntuc. and xueqin reached when we were at ntuc! whoops. so she stayed at the church and prepared the rooms. then emelyne went to buy dinner, so enlin and i returned to church first. helped xueqin finish up packing, then emelyne came back and the kids all came so start. enlin took attendance, then emelyne did pre-survey with the kids. then xueqin did the presentation and i did keyboard-pressing and camera while emelyne and enlin went to next door to prepare for games.

after presentation, enlin divided the kids into 4 groups of 5, then shepherded them to the next room. emelyne briefed them on the game, then they played: 1 healthy food = 5 points, 1 unhealthy food = -5 points. one poor group ended up with 5 points. =( but had 4 kids out of 5 at younger than 8-9 years, so it was okay. although the other groups got at least 40 points. >< then when emelyne was counting score with the kids, some went hyper and started shouting "不健康", so emelyne minus-ed marks off those who shouted. xDD point system rocks. haha.

then was drawing. haha when emelyne told them it was drawing time, they literally screamed la. had them occupied for about 15-20 minutes while emelyne prepared the food. then the drawings were collected, and enlin taught them the banana dance and we all danced with them. =D haha. then enlin had them go out group by group to wash hands and get food from emelyne while xueqin entertained them and i helped emelyne for a short while. then went back into the room to play the apples-and-bananas video and the iloveegg animation. kids are at their best with hands on some food and eyes on a screen. xD

haha they even asked for the videos again and again. and when i told them that i would add marks if they learnt the words, they actually started singing out loud! haha im horrible. xD but at least they were actually having fun. when they finished their food, emelyne tallied the score (group 1: 45 | 2: 80 | 3: 10 | 4: 75) and the winning group got 1 packet of apple juice per kid. then they went back, and we packed up and went home.

haha fun day. learnt some lessons about kids, but heck. xD photos next time. lazy. haha.

i wonder whats next for pw other than i&r, wr and op. oh wells. i want another mini-trial! haha this one was successful (the kids liked our games and the healthy food. yeah!), so somehow improve on this one and make the whole thing better!

haha next time. now sleepy time. tomorrow got pesta sukan. >< i hope i last longer this time. jia you everyone! =)

bubbye.

2008-08-11T23:12:00.002+08:00

just something random.

i dont know if its just me or whatever, but i've recently felt quite envious of other people. not that i dont like my current life; heck, i feel im super fortunate to be born into my family. but its just...

i guess i've been feeling lonely when im at home. books, tutorials, tv, computer, food, sisters, piano, fresh air, exercise... its routine to me already. i know my grades arent that good, so i should spend more time on my books and tutorials, but im tired of them. i just want someone not in my immediate family to talk to. im just so envious of those who have classmates or schoolmates who live like walking distance away, so they go home together, spend time playing or talking or simply doing stuff together.

thats probably one reason why i go to school. despite tests and exams and grades, theres all these great people all around me, talking, laughing, accompanying me through the hectic school life. they go through thick and thin with you (almost all, i guess), and make fun of you, laugh at and with you, eat with you, spend time working with you... its enough to dispel all the misgivings you once had about the academic world.

to me, friends are like the family you never had (cliched, but that sums it up), and one you can mess around with. this family, of mixed blood and name, share your moments in school, be it happy, sad, funny, embarrassing, thoughtful, angry, disappointing, euphoric... (cant think of any more adjectives) whatever the case is, i kinda wanna spend more time with whoever i call a friend. i dont like the way im going home now: sometimes with earphones in my ears, sometimes with a book or paper in my hands, sometimes sleeping, sometimes stoning...

i guess i really am selfish. after all, how many times have i hurt others whom i refer to as my friends? some probably dont even see me as a person they want to recognise/know, and others just resign to their fate of having known me as an acquaintance. maybe i dont even have the right to call some people my friends, given all my previous deeds and all.

and yet someone told me never to put myself down as i have just done. another told me to have more confidence in myself. a third ordered me never to apologise to him/her, since i had done so too many times before (quote: "stop being so generous with your apologies; they wont be sincere if you are so used to giving them away."). people were there when i felt horrible at myself. people saved me from hitting myself unconscious during my "self-harm" period. people have sat down beside me, listening to me rant out my feelings, and, simply, listen.

i have always wanted to be a listening ear, to help someone with his/her problems, but i never seem to be able to render myself useful in any way. i try to lend a hand to whoever/whatever i think needs help, and yet either the situation doesnt require me/my help, or i fail to see a situation that requires me/my help. i want to help so bad, and yet i feel so helpless. but these people always refuse to let me feel bad, telling me that i am needed elsewhere, or they wouldnt want to intrude on me, and ask me to go and complete my homework and not waste my time.

i thank them. i thank you. i guess friends are always there for when you need them, no matter for what reason. friends, and anyone closer, are near you for a reason. i dont believe that there isnt a reason for you to live. the moment you came to this world, you made someone happy. (obvious, and true, but many dont see it.) i love all those around me, be it sibling-love, friendship-love, kinship-love, or whatever you can think of.

i just wish that someone stayed near me, or someone that stayed near me became a close acquaintance. even though i know that this wish would probably never come true (unless i take the initiative to talk to someone/anyone/my neighbours), i still hold hope to myself. i just want someone to talk to in the flesh, beside me, whom i can listen to as well, and not just be and output source. i wanna help.

if you have been patient enough to read through the whole blog, i sincerely thank you. even though i have no idea why you would want to read through my whole entry. i just thought of close friends, and was thinking why i have none so much so that any girl i talk to for several days makes her someone i like more than just a friend.

thats all for now. reflection number 2 since the meeting, even though this probably would pull my grades down even lower. but im a people person; i care. i want to care, to help. i need social interaction as well, like everyone else, not just simple black-and-white and writing and calculations.

i just wish for someone who can let me know that i am liked for who i am, for my flaws and my strengths (if there are any to be found). but that would be asking too much already.

bubbye. =|

2008-08-10T18:42:00.000+08:00

looks kinda familiar, doesnt it? like it appeared on someone's blog... yeah, i was there too, on a different day. and i didnt even know anyone else from my class would go. *shrugs*

mrs toh and baby ray! xDD super cute! haha he kept playing with his basketball socks.

2 photos for now. finally tried posting photos. found that it takes a super long time to upload. maybe i should try other way/means to post pics... heck, too lazy. xD but i havent been able to take photos of our class lately. T.T capture more shots next time. and i thought i had a photo of jewelle smiling like crazy, but i cant find it... oh wells.

haha okay next time ba.

2008-08-10T00:05:00.004+08:00

i really dont wanna screw grade 8 again. i wanna do a charlene or esther or liyi or zijie or enlin-to-be. i wanna PASS. PLEASE. >< i dont have time again next year, or the year after, or the year after that. seriously.

HAHA i changed blogskin! xDD i dont know if you reading this finds it nice, but its quite good to me at least. although the fonts are on the small side, but i dont really mind. and im not going to change the font size to bigger. =)

the past few weeks were kinda crazy for me. had to see teachers, draw up plans for myself, go for extra consultations, sat study sessions (which work. yay. xD), more back trouble, more conflicts, sudden crazes... i dont know, but it wasnt really smooth for me (or anyone else, for that matter. heck, i probably had it easier than some others.).

nat hols are here! haha the last stretch of rest before teachers day/sept hols, then mugging (><) time continues. oh wells. but at least some crazy stuff happened. haha. 07s7c were crazy up in the middle of the hall during the singing part, and 08s6q were insane, jumping and singing like there wouldnt be another nat day celebrations in hc. xDD and my sister got her flag confiscated 5 times and ultimately broken within 1 hour of getting it larh! haha. result of irritating her friends with constant flag-waving in front of their faces. funny. =D

then after celebrations the mutilation group and my group went to do pw; i think most of the rest went home. poor kaiyuan, had to complete the bio ilp test after his performance. haha i didnt see him on stage at all! -.- and enlin made her first appearance within dunno how many days of joining harmoc. fast. even though she wasnt playing the harmoc, and we (i, at least) couldnt hear the piano. >< but it was nice. =)

went to enlins house to continue our pw thingys. emelyne's arts prowess completely owns mine any time, and same goes with enlins computer mastery. xD seriously, emelyne can draw on the comp la. haha. her pot of boiling water was cute. and i managed to design some of our mascots! (which i need to send to the rest of the group and i promtpy forgot until now. crap.) and our food shuttle's almost complete, left the card printing and mixing of box contents. yayness. xD

her place super far larh. -.- took quite long to get home (shorter than expected, though) and met some random people on the way back. there was this group of guys trying to hit on 2 girls, and this 4 year old boy who screamed when he lost his balance playing with his brother. >< and i fell asleep standing again. sucks. luckily this time didnt fall. and surprisingly when i woke up i was literally dripping in perspiration. o.O dunno how that happened. blehh.

got home and helped prepare for my dad's dinner. his new work team came over for dinner and to warm up more. all of them are damn funny, the things they do. like adults with children's hearts, but only for that night. I MISSED THE SINGAPORE CONTINGENT IN THE OLYMPICS OPENING T.T. and the one kid that came over played with my sister. crazy naughty la, that boy. climb all over the furniture and bring drinks upstairs. he didnt dare look at me after one time. probably scared him somehow. lol.

today supposed to get up early and study, but woke up at 11am instead. >< had brunch, watched some olympics, then did some reading. did random stuffs like fixing a broken bullclip and listening to radio, then fast forward to dinner and more reading and now here. half a weekend gone. NOOOO.

ehh emelyne and i were thinking of organising an outing during the sept hols. wed, going jurong for iceskating, then maybe lunch and a movie. all tentative, but we want to have a gathering then. please keep that wed free for our class outing. =) and more ideas! direct to activity i/cs or welfare reps.

haha thanks jon for the national day greeting/wish. and yeah, i read your blog marvin. nice change, although maybe you should try something else. like me. xD

please leave your comments about the new blogskin. even though i dont think i'll have time to change to another one, if there are too many negatives, i would try to find a better one, or revert back to the old one, which i hope i dont have to see again. xD

bubbye.

~ wth. and im supposed to be a Healer, a people-person. funny how things work out.

and i still want to see her again. to talk to her, to see her smile... but i guess its not really possible at this point of time. i just hope, selfishly, that she isnt taken yet, but i guess all i can wish for is for her to be happy.

2008-07-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

my dad went for lasik today! haha his 600-degree eyesight suddenly went to no-glasses eyesight. but he was like out of commission for several hours after that. i think he completed the op at 4 plus 5, but was out until 8. blind throughout. had to have help from my mum.

im super envious of those without specs larh. perfect eyesight's so cool. dont need to care about how dirty your specs become or worried that they might get broken somehow. contacts are fine, but quite troublesome, since need to take out every night and wear again the next morning.

and i dont even have proper vision in both eyes. really want to correct the super-bad eye, but seems like nothing can be done at this point of time. i think my mum booked some op in november. its to correct the squint and angle of the eyeball. purely cosmetic, and puts me out of commission for a month at least (no training, sports, anything that may involve contact with my eyes, accidental or intentional), so it kinda sucks. but at least it helps. REALLY helps. although i'll still be as ugly as i am now, maybe slightly better only. xD

really wanna go for lasik, but its like super ex. and i'll be out of action again for a month. (which means no exercise again. ><) but my mum says its cheaper now, and i should go cos the investment in lasik beats having to buy specs/contacts constantly over the years. pays off after about 5-7 years (since im accident-prone). see first la. anyway im still underaged for the op. need to be 18.

and im scared. they use laser to burn off and trim your lens. and before that they cut open your cornea to engage the op. o.O how on earth can people stand that? they do numb your eyes with some eyedrop first, but staring into some laser for several minutes? >< omg larh.

random: somehow, im feeling better and happier after i took another shower. wasting water = relaxation. oops. haha.

heck, think more about that later. its late. bubbye. =)

2008-07-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

should really change my blogskin. probably after nat hols.

im super tired. i dont even know what im doing la. im confused as to how i can control myself. i know i lack seriously lack discipline and willpower, and my time management skills are shit (why am i writing this now when i should be doing maths. -.-), but i cant help myself. that or i just simply refuse to help myself. i dont know.

so every day 2 chapters of any topic of any subject. all the way till promos. and a study plan. yeah, i dont have one. thats why i've been doing so poorly. need to change tack in studying methods. all this talk; i probably should just force myself to start doing things.

got frustrated today after i couldnt do maths. >< sucks. then took a short walk outside, and i realised the method to another physics question totally unrelated... hell, im weird. but at least now i know how i think. better, at least, than what i have been doing.

~

sorry, liyi, that i passed you the flu. and sorry that it got so bad, even though apologising wont help you get better. get well soon, and good luck for friday's performance.
sorry, esther, that i did something wrong in term 2. even though i dont know if this apology will be accepted. but im sincerely sorry.
sorry, marvin, that i hurt you (psychologically, i think), even though i didnt mean to. i know my intentions, and they are not what you think.

i guess apologies here wont seem sincere and wont help much, but im a coward. for now. i cant muster the courage to face the facts and the people that i have wronged. and for that, i feel sorry for myself.

~

must understand that the only way i can help myself is to start doing properly. pay more attention, and stay ahead of what im saying/thinking/doing. either way, theres way too much room for improvement. buck up, daryl.

oh and marvin, referring to the replicas, it was just a casual comparison. there's no need to comment on it, or provide another comparison, because there isnt. and if the comparison offended you, sorry, esther.

session one of self-reflection since the meeting. bubbye.

2008-07-20T23:28:00.004+08:00

season's over. finally can rest. and just nice i had to get my back muscle pulled. oh wells. but at least its getting better. and THEN came to full blast of flu. the whole family got it. the weekend spent with super sore throat. sucks.

first mugging session at tp lib with hlaf the team. i guess it went okay la, seeing as i finished some maths, asked some physics and taught some chem (surprise, since i FAILED. ><). but its not enough larh. need to do more self revision. and more self training. both physically and mentally. my mental willpower fails man. self-control is almost down to zero.

lol, super fun today. woke up at 12.30, had brunch, then went to do physics. my oscillations still needs help. and i stopped at 23! omg. i dont know how to calculate. then started playing mini car racing. this comp car racing game in which you kill other racers to get first. lol i pwned the ai's. then went to my uncle's house for dinner. crab. xD

the adults took one table while the kids and the adults that couldnt fit onto the first table took the second. the second table was a normal table, while the first was a round wooden table without its legs placed on top of a mahjong table. then halfway through the dinner, the whole mahjong table COLLAPSED. xD over loaded with food and dishes. and the funny thing was, NOTHING WAS BROKEN. no plates smashed, no dish cracked. all the adults somehow managed to react to the falling of the table even though it was so sudden. they all CARRIED IT. LOL. then the collapsed mahjong table was removed and all the chairs pushed under the wooden table. then they continued eating japanese style. xDD all those on the kids table were laughing our asses off. oh and nothing spilt that much too, only some curry got onto the table. the floor was spotless. o.O haha. miracles do happen! (i wish i got some photos down; seriously, its damn funny and amazing how the whole thing happened.)

oh, and my cousin-twice-removed is SUPER CUTE. haha she's 4, and her name's jewelle. pronounced joel. and she's like esther's 4-year-old replica. at least, i think she is. haha. the way she acts and her expressions and even her skin colour. and she refuses to do a high-five with me! T.T and she did it like 20-something times with my sister and cousin in front of me larh. >< suan. lol. again no photos.

finally remembered to let my littlest sister do marvin's group's survey form. lol. shall remember to bring it tomorrow.

oh, do we want a class gathering on the national day weekend? to emelyne's house in malaysia. yeah, getting a bus and all wont be easy, but just an idea. i can organise and all, but just to see if anyone wants to go first. if not no point. i wanna go. =)

lol marvin that was random. unfortunately i dont really tag in other people's blogs. i find myself a nuisance to other people, and like im contaminating their blog when i tag. (that means my blog is like totally a hazard. o.O) yeah, but if you want me to tag your/some-random-person's blog, then i would gladly do so anyway. =)

okay bubbye.

2008-07-16T00:03:00.004+08:00

met some weird people on the bus today. an old 50+/60 year old man (i think, based on looks) with a dollar-coin in his ear, literally. a seemingly same age old lady who seems to think that she owns the bus, screaming at people to sit down on her seat when she got up and shouting to the driver that it was her stop after 2 more stops. didnt press the bell. and an sbs counter person who topped up $10 when i gave him $20. how nice.

dango dai kazoku is stuck in my head. but i dont mind. =D

enough for now, its super late. shall end with a music video, courtesy of wenjia. its super nice. at least, i think it is. and so does wenjia. mm.

oh, and marvin, you still can grow. jump and stretch more, and sleep more, since growth hormones are at their highest secretion levels when you are resting. i think. (hypocritical me again. oh wells.) anyway rest well la. and to the rest of the class too. get well soon esther.

JIA YOU. TOMORROW FINALS. ROOAAAARRR. (shant do the cheer here. sounds/looks weird.)

okay bubbye.

2008-07-13T23:59:00.002+08:00

seriously la, after doing more research on the fastfood track, i realised that the best way to stop obesity is to kill the fastfood chains or kill their advertising or enforce some kind of rule that says eat-with-your-family-5-days-a-week-at-least or something, instead of simply encouraging people to eat at home. and wth is wrong with more pe lessons? its like we can all have fun learning new games/skills/randomstuffs while keeping healthy (the fun part at least for me la. i know of some who dont like sports. oh wells.), so why only once a week the moment you hit secondary school? moe should start mandatory daily pe, or at least twice a week la, to ensure health/fitness levels of students. plus, studies have shown that pe provides the brain with more blood and oxygen/nutrients, so education will have a much better efficiency level than what it has now. (although not for me. o.O) so pe is good. MORE SPORTS. MORE OUTDOORS. LESS INDOORS. and more greens/fruits in the canteen!

okay enough ranting about health. although i wanna scream more about my HEIGHT. WHICH HAS NOT INCREASED FOR THE PAST what 3 YEARS OR SO. wth la. stuck at 163-164cm. uber-shortness. sucks. lol. but what can i do, since i screwed up in sec 2. freak it.

blocks were totally shit. got back chem and maths so far, and phy mcq (didnt go on tue, so no econs results yet.) no need to announce to the world. feeling quite stressed out over schoolwork, since im not getting anything, and doing tutorials are almost the same as sitting at the table and staring at the paper. i know i need tuition, but i dont know whats wrong with me. i just dont feel like going. and my discipline levels still dropping. wth.

although nationals were quite good. hci/ny all 6 divs (a, b, c - boys/girls) all into finals! haha yayness. (although im still very sore, embarrassed and zibei-ing.) good luck to all once again! bedok stadium on wed, jia you! =D trip-gold? quad-gold? five golds? SIX GOLDS? WAHAHAHA. xD

so marvin suddenly wants to start learning harmoc. was asking me about the price and how to play it this weekend. although marvin, you should have gone to esther and kaiyuan what, why come to me? im noob. lol. (you did go to them, right?) haha and esther wants to start a band! haha pro pro. maybe kaiyuan can join up with beatbox, or liyi with erhu. lol mixed culture, east-west fusion! haha. anyway good luck!

okay sleepy time. its super late. bubbye.

p.s. note to self: positivity is your fourth strength. make it stay in your top 5. look for help NOW. you know you need it. stop thinking too much, and get down to it.

2008-07-07T21:12:00.001+08:00

JIA YOU ALL OF US. =)

2008-07-03T21:13:00.003+08:00

sucks. sabbats are over. i want the one week sabbats like in high school! T.T but oh well. at least it was FUN. xD yeah with anying and siyuan as the closer people i knew out of the 16 that went. made friends (or re-made) with yumeng, claire, rachel and caleane (i hope i spelled it right). yup. haha had half-dinner at subway with them yesterday after the sabbats ended. talked a lot, the 6 of us. >< MY MEMORY SUCKS. haha but had a lot of fun with them. =) windsurfing proficiency level 1! xDD

just broke the news about my oh-so-pro grades for maths and chem to my parents. made an agreement with me, so now my computer will be in their room after 11 pm. sucks. but oh well. its for my own good. need to buck up, as said by mrs chua.

going for the milk run this sunday! haha its for charity. although need to register la. but i think its free. and its crazy, i dont even know how far i have to run la. all i know is that its from 11am to 7pm. nice right. and running along singapore river. o.O oh wells. i hope i can recover in time for comps. OH. comps are like these few weeks. must get into finals. JIA YOU A TEAM (BOYS/GIRLS). =)

s73 people are getting kinda fun and weird. lol, kinda ironic. but yeah, to me its true. although some need to cheer themselves on (im being a hypocrite again. -.-), others to have more fun and smile more, and yet others who need to chill a bit, all of us seem to be okay. i finally made contact with several, although at a cost. but its an improvement, at least. =) oh and the new chem teacher is liyi's cousin's friend! haha heard from liyi that hes kinda strict and all, but only first lesson, so no idea. and pw st changed! from nirmala ong to ms teo, s71's bio teacher/ct. shes kinda funny, although cold at times, but relaxed at teaching. she says shes not critical (unlike nirmala), although being critical has its ups too. eom tomorrow. >< die. havent prepare. and surveys very far behind schedule. and MINI TRIAL OMG.

i guess thats all. although i still wanna play an rpg/mmorpg/mmog/adventure-fantasy/racing game. cant find new nice ones, and the rest are all on psp. no kaching to buy, and parents would never allow so long as im studying. sigh... never mind. i shall kope marvin's/yx's the moment hols come. WAHAHA.

(marvin) lol which movie you want to see?
(jon) lol you go run lor. i have to stop training le. and bey's crazy la, his speed and stamina are insane.

good luck emelyne and pekyee for your comps! (hopefully not too late) and jia you to the rest of us for everything else! xD

bubbye.

2008-06-28T17:17:00.003+08:00

i gave up trying to change my blogskin. or maybe until i can get someone's help. its too tedious.

BLOCKS ARE OVER. =D

my legs are super numb from sitting too long. and im finally going out again. and my knees arent doing too well, still, especially my right.

certain people arent feeling too right now that blocks are over. but all i can say is that, well, things still must go on. dont dwell on it; look forward, things will get better.

our new timetable kinda stinks slightly, but at least we have a break now. (at least according to what jon said.) yeah, super long days are tiring, especially if they are like every single workday of the week.

probably going to take a long sports break after nats. go for couple of ops, rest, rehab/physio. and all the while mugging for promos. crazy la, what 12/13 weeks left to promos. i dont wanna retain. T.T

shall we have a class outing? ideas, ideas! haha crash at someone's house (not mine, preferably. i wanna see other people's houses! o.O)? iceskating? hanging out at some random place? anything ba.

mum's rushing me. bubbye. =)

2008-06-26T19:43:00.001+08:00

my sec 3 sister:

"once upon a time, there was a very ugly bunny. he was so ugly that all his friends died. the end."

o.O

2008-06-22T16:24:00.003+08:00

( ",)

na. updated. =)

i'll try and find some time next week la. now really cannot. and i really have a lot of things to blog about. like how i saved the poor lizard on thursday. it got stuck in the scotch tape of cambridge!! T.T poor guy. (and poor liyi, hugging the bridge without knowing the poor lizard was stuck there.)

yeah. bubbye. i'm screwed. BAD.

2008-06-04T22:46:00.003+08:00

YAY exoro is finally over. my team (hc team 2 aka exodus) didnt win anything, but hc team 1 won champs and we (teams 1, 2 and 3) won overall school champs! xD yay wahahaha. very interesting game. too bad kianmin and bey couldnt play, even though they were the original members of team 2. leader zijie, member 1 jeremy chen (replacement bey shi min), member 2 daryl teo (replacement oh kian min).

we didnt do too well, getting (for 1st, 2nd and 3rd days) 1st, 4th, 6th. team 1 (ownage team) got 2nd, 2nd and 1st, and team 3 got 4th, 2nd, 1st. but first day we were all blur and tjc were owning since they had like 5 sets (i heard) of the exoro game in their entrep club (each set seems to cost hundreds. o.O) and we were there seemingly for fun. i had no idea exoro even existed la. but then second day they really whack. tjc really owned silently while the rest of us tried allying and teaming up. then in the end team 1 worked with a team from rjc (litying and daniel! xD) while team 3 worked with (or took over) an all-girls team from yjc for today. crazy la. all owned. while we helped ite (bishan) get second and njc get 1st while we got bloody 6th today. T.T

so in the end tjc got 3rd, sajc got 2nd (these 2 teams were super strong.) and hci got 1st for the individual teams. and overall school champs initially went to nyjc. but then we calculated and found that it was impossible that they could have won us overall. then we all chionged the ceo of exoro and asked him to check. turns out some technical error ("seems like we rely too much on technology. you know, it was the excel file. something about the formulas and all.") caused the miscalculations and yeah, we won in the end.

but all's well that ends well la, i guess. gonna have to convince mdm tengara to get our school some sets so we can play. its super fun! haha.

econs on tuesday was still not too bad. at least i did the questions and got some correct. then tengara was being nice again and b(r)ought cookies (famous amos!) and the chocolate-marshmallow-thingies-with-grape-filling which zijie and kaiyuan ate a lot of. then after lesson went down to celebrate liyi's birthday! (one day in advance.) the cake was some kind of chocolate cake with cocoa powder on top and chocolates on top of the powder and random fruits. then surprised her at the library staircase first level, then went back to class bench to cut cake and take photos. (thanks jianhua!) cake is nice to smear on people's faces, right, kaiyuan? xD

then went to coro to eat lunch, although the guys couldnt decide where to go. first went to cosy corner: too crowded. then prince: too ex. so in the end still went to golden rooster even though at first say dont want. -.- then zijie bought fries and jon and kaiyuan dabao ipoh horfun. then jon and kaiyuan went back and zijie and i went to mymca for day 2 of exoro.

cant talk anymore already. too late and i still have to finish packing up for tomorrow/fri/sat training camp. im so going to die la. im physically tired and not ready for training. and mentally dead after exoro. WARH. and still have to mug. omg. okay bubbye.

oh yeah. HAPPY (salty seventeenth) BIRTHDAY LIYI. =)

2008-06-01T22:12:00.003+08:00

note to self: dont sleep shirt-less under 22degree aircon.

yay finally posting again, after one week inactiveness. i dont know if i can continue keeping this blog going or not... the stupid template blogskin is evidence enough. sigh...

anyway i dont know what has happened. the first week of holidays was kinda routine, except for the monday and tuesday. then all else the same lor. training, rest, study, repeat.

monday went to high school drama centre after training and studying for harmoc windworks. saved seats for emelyne and gek khim (i think thats how her name spells) and bey (who didnt turn up). then saw esther, kaiyuan, zeemay, liting and random other people perform. the songs were super nice and cool la! haha one of the reasons why i wanted to pick up harmonica so many years ago. and saw peijin ushering outside, thinking she was a member of harmoc. and went backstage with emelyne and gekkhim during intermission to try and find esther kaiyuan and liting, but couldnt find them. ended up talking to caifang (i think, and who i can only remember as peijin's friend) for a while, then had to go out for the rest of the performance. then after the whole thing (the conductor was damn funny! xD) we went back upstage to find the 3 of them again. emelyne gave them gifts (i can never bring myself to buy/make them. >< sorry!), and gekkhim gave her cat soft toy away, then we went back. walked emelyne to high school admin office, then walked gekkhim to open-air carpark before going back. i wanna watch windworks next year i if i can help it.

tuesday went out for movie even though econs was cancelled. went to somerset thinking i was late but ended up being the earliest, with esther on the same train, unknowingly. then zijie, emelyne and kaiyuan. then we went to (i cant remember the place's name!) for lunch and waited for anying and jiali. (and zijie noticed something very nice about a woman who happened to be wearing her skirt slightly too low. >< omg la.) then anying came and had her lunch, then we waited for jiali for a short while then went up to watch indiana jones (and the kingdom of the crystal skull, if i remember correctly). which was super funny and nice. and allowed me to see something i shouldnt have.

after that emelyne had to rush off for training. then the rest of us went to arcade to play random games, while anying went off to get something (i think). after some racing games, esther and jiali got stuck on some tower building game (which HAD to be programmed to not let you win. both got the the last level several times and both didnt get it, and this super pro guy who was with them also didnt get it no matter how many times he tried. but the prizes are like a handphone and a psp and a nintendo ds so...) then after some tekken games (during which the 3 girls left) and an aircraft simulator which totally cheats your money, we left.

yeah. friday was a bit crazy la. after the tekan-ing and the talk and all, we all had to reflect on our actions and behaviour and all. i guess since the school wasnt helping, we should have thought more for him, but yet we still did horrible stuff. like latecoming and all. i just hope sir can forgive us. especially me, who went off on the sat we were supposed to apologise and train. ><

then sat morning went off to kukup, malaysia. some fishing village, rural and all, but with aircon, tv, ktv, showers, toilets, provision stores, restaurants etc., so cant really say rural. 21 of my extended family (+ some friends) stayed at a stilt-house near the end (it was the end; they went and built some haolian house right beside us, so no sea view. T.T). the whole place was on stilts, anyway. below and to one side of the village was muddy stuff and mangroves, and low tide meant you could see mudskippers, crabs, snakes, rats and monkeys all around the bottom of the houses.

dinner was bbq under the stars! xD they had stingray, chicken wings, satay and some random stuffs. then eat already went to set off RM200 worth of firecrackers. almost lost fingers/hand/eyes several time, super close. heh. the girls got bored after half the lot was set off, so left my dad, my cousin's bf and me letting the rest go, albeit with some experimentation (my cousin's bf and i temporarily lost our hearing in one ear each after a stupid experiment: we set off 10 strings of crackers all at one shot. o.O) and dangerous acts (accidentally almost shooting a firecracker into the house opposite us. kena shouting. -.- accident ma.). but had quite some fun, esp throwing dry bombs at people's feet. xD

then played mahjong/sang ktv/played psp/bathed/had midnight snack/talk/play cards until 1 plus, then slowly went to sleep one by one. and reminder to self: look at the first line of current post. cos i've been sneezing on and off since i left the kelong this morning. or maybe it was due to the cold showers i had... mm. either way it could have been worse: my cousin was snoring in my ear + sleeping on my arm = whole day sleepy + numbness for 2 hours the next morning.

the next day, woken up by another cousin ktv-ing in the place of a rooster who has no sense of timing. went out with 2 other cousins to scream at him (to no avail) and then went to wash up and eat prata for breakfast. then packed up, played with air-pistol, shot myself accidentally, played psp, then went back to the main road for lunch. (oh, the kelong we stayed at was about 5-10 mins walking from the main road, along a concrete path elevated 4m above the mud bed, 1.5m in width and no railings whatsoever, with motorbikes and bicycles passing you every few steps. fun. xD)

after lunch, we went to some jusco for shopping, then went home. reached home about 7 plus (couldnt get to school for co concert! parents wouldnt allow me to rush to school, and the jam at customs was crazy. T.T sorry liyi!), then went up to bathe. went back down for dinner, and realised that the hosue was infested with the winged ants that are attracted to light. parents tried to get rid of it using a basin with water to drown them (in the light's reflection), but not much use. in the end we all went up early (8 plus) after chasing as much of them out as possible.

and here i am. crazy past week. and tomorrow is the start of exoro, and tues is econs, and thur is training camp WARH. i love the june hols man.

i really should stop thinking. and i should start mugging seriously. wth.

2008-05-24T17:13:00.003+08:00

yeah, my blog is pretty much dead. i have no idea what to write already. my life is so boring.

just came back from exoro demo thing with zijie and bey. the game seems quite fun, although super confusing and all. and our team got 3rd out of 6 in the demo round. not bad, but not very good. ><

reading and remembering things through other people's blogs again. haha. arts fest performance was fun and nice. the band song and co song super fun la! haha. and the dances were cool. and the choir people = a lot. o.O haha didnt realise. guitar played the same song, and strings performance was nice too. harmoc had a unique tone, but very nice too. (sorry esther! i really hoped to see you up there performing. ><) haha liyi was telling me after that that zhonghu had really little to play. and she was scolding me for not knowing where zhonghu had a melody part la. -.- paiseh, im partially tone-deaf.

OUR (skeletal) BRIDGE (or "bridge") got like 2nd for load-weight ratio la! haha and aesthetics also not bad. but may get disqualified because no base. >< cars still can go past what. 2 wheels on each side lar. cannot meh!? and trains can cross also! and people can walk on the sides what! WHY CANNOT?!?! rahh. (but no base means less weight. xD whoops.)

the holidays have started! although i wouldnt call them holidays. june isnt going to be fun overall. 2 training camps (my poor knees... T.T), exoro, daily studying... at least i have a 2-day vacation and a few gatherings to look forward to.

okay have to go. thinking of going to project within's roadshow before dinner. soup for dinner! xD yeah i love soup. any kind of soup. although double boiled chicken's the best. yay bubbye.

i wanna PLAY. anything. and SLEEP. and go out. =)

2008-05-17T01:30:00.003+08:00

im seriously a bloody hypocrite. telling others to cheer up and believe in themselves and take care of themselves and here i am shitting myself.

i need a change in life. plan out june hols. even though more than half of it is training. top 10 to-do list:
1. sleep.
2. homework/revision.
3. sleep.
4. revision/homework/practice.
5. sleep.
6. reading. (i need a new book or 2! T.T)
7. sleep.
8. going out/playing/exercising/sports/games.
9. homework.
10. sleep.
yeah. training not included as it is going to be part of daily regime soon. wth. but i need to get stronger anyways.

so yeah. maybe i should believe in myself more first and take more care of myself before telling others what to do.

school's getting heated up again. tensions between 2 groups. maybe more. 2 individuals getting segregated. several suffering in various stuff (grades, social life, health, fitness, etc.). yeah... things WILL get better. yup. =)

and SEE. i cant remember anything again. except that i went for vjc guitar concert after training today. which was very different from the hc concert. there was intro to the whole ensemble instruments, and there were ONLY guitars performing, with bands and honorary guest performance. SUPER COOL. haha the whole place was rocking to jenny! and the conductor super cute la. dancing to mambo number 5 while asking the crowd to join in singing. xDD

please tell me by tonight (sat night, 17/5) if you are going to join the 30-hour famine. i can help you sign up. and STRONGLY encouraged to sign up as game masters (17 years and above, free on 31/5 for full day trial, and actual camp) or as general helpers (15 years/above, free on actual camp). yup. once again, its $30 to join. and to me, its quite worth it.

okay sleep now. once again, way past my bedtime. bubbye.

2008-05-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

just saw this from a friend's msn nick.

http://peanutcups.livejournal.com/

its quite sad, but very touching and encouraging. please, support her with your heart. even if you are not christian, or are not related to sngs, or any other reasons/excuses there may be, just be there with her in your heart. and dropping a note wouldnt hurt as well. =)

stay strong, vanessa. i may not know you, but all the same, i will be supporting you. just as everyone else is. as a born-in-'91 student as well, and a former exchange student to sngs, i bid you good luck, and all the best.

2008-05-15T21:28:00.002+08:00

blearh. i keep screwing up everything. i keep saying i should do this and i keep telling myself i will do that, and yet i dont. mm. problem...

anyways, my acads grades are seriously worrying a lot of people. firstly, me. secondly, my parents (who are trying to get me into tuition, saying that i seriously need help. which i dont deny.). thirdly, my teachers (mrs chua, obviously, who's already trying to help with maths; mr wong, who wanted to speak to me but didnt answer my sms; plus random others.). there may be more, but these are the most affected groups of people. T.T im trying to work hard. (and here i am blogging. wth.)

yeah. school seems more fun now, though. even though i still cant remember half the things that happened over the past week. all i can remember is mrs chua's birthday card-thingy, which EMELYNE and ESTHER worked super hard to accomplish (yay THANKS! haha great job manss. caps to emphasize. xD) which we couldnt give on tues (her birthday) cos she was too busy. then we gave her on wed, and sang her birthday song before class started. then everything went back to normal. mm.

went for dance night full dress rehearsal ytd! haha it was cool. all the dances were super nice la. although got one or two super dark theme. like some kinda cult or related doing some kind of ritual. o.O but yeah, the dances were nice. saw a lot of people on stage. but no mentions here. lol. too many la. plus i cant remember all. then my mum told me that we would be free on sat night. wth la, and i just sold off my ticket.

gems on sun! no idea if im looking forward to it or not. but it should be fun la, hopefully. although some people will have to wake up super early. PLEASE reach my place at 11 am SHARP so we can begin on time. for those who have trouble finding my place, or want to meet up first, 10:45 am at serangoon mrt station. lunch SHOULD be provided. oh, and the ingredients/stuff all bought le. yeah.

got lotsa things to do during june. training camp x2, training every week, schoolwork catching up, mugging for bts, cip, 30-hour famine (!), outings. which reminds me. if you see this, please remind others and yourself to send me a list of days you will/will NOT be free (confirmed dates, at least) so that i can organise some class outings. i know anying wants to go iceskating. =) anymore ideas for class outing?

i need a change in my life. my daily life. i know what to do, and all i need is my own motivation to change. jia you daryl. and animals that live in the poles are in danger of drowning, especially those in the north pole, like polar bears and seals (and santa claus) due to climate change. summer ice melting rates are increasing, some claiming due to global warming. even so, we may have an ice-free north pole soon (which sucks). so the (stupid) 5 nations (canada, denmark, norway, russia and the united states) who are trying to lay claim on north pole territories should stop trying to increase their borders; instead, they should lower their contributions to increasing global temperatures.

yet in what position am i to say the above? oh wells. bubbye.

2008-05-10T00:49:00.005+08:00

歌曲：喜欢
歌手：古巨基
词曲: 阿怪
编: 黄中岳

喜欢你的头发
喜欢你的脸颊
喜欢你微笑的时候眼里藏不住的光
喜欢你的害羞
喜欢你的疯狂
想要一天二十四个小时守在你身旁

喜欢开你玩笑
喜欢叫你傻瓜
喜欢吓你一跳的时候看你慌张的模样
喜欢搭你肩膀
喜欢你会怕痒
喜欢趁你没有防备偷袭你的手指甲

想要抱你一下
贴紧我的胸膛
想要告诉你这样下去不是办法
想要把你绑架
想要带你回家
想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒
想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒

思念你令我惊慌想到你令我膨胀
你的每个笑容都会令我幸福的快爆炸
见你的时候我总是说些傻呼呼的蠢话
令我随时随地濒临疯狂

~

yayy. even though i dont know how to change the font type and size. xD

im tired. still have training tomorrow morning. body pain. piles of schoolwork undone. phy online test to do. next wed phy test.

okay, look on the bright side. the weekend is here. and mother's day is tomorrow! haha. =) its saturday today already. oh no. sleepy time. bubbye.

oh, and the timing should be changed to 11am-3pm on 18 may for gems. yeah. i think i'll post on class blog. more prominent. but maybe later in the afternoon... skipping sentosa trip to revise. -.-

2008-05-08T21:53:00.002+08:00

got a bit of time before going to do physics.

monday was crazy. chem is dead la. and i think i got an overall last for chem (and most other subjects) in class. >< then training very bad shape. not even up to sec 4 standard. wth.

tuesday was part bad. gp was haaaaard. didnt finish aq. screwed. the day was super long, but the rest of the day had its merits. at least i didnt sleep in econs. although i didnt bring lecture 12 notes... and i did chem tutorial! xD then went to crash siyuan's h1 jap class again. i really like that class la. the people are so close and all. they even accepted me when they heard i took jap till sec 4. nice. =)

wed was kinda fun. chem lab (i did tutorial again! wahaha. xD) then maths tutorial. which was bad. then went to pulau tekong bmtc for tour. the place is nice la. much nicer than what i expected. although i have a feeling that in 2 years time im not going to feel the same way. >< but the overall tour was nice. mr bean show! haha. then the intro by second-in-command of bmtc school 1 major effendi and experiences by a lieutenant (forgot his name). then live tour. the bunks are cool. and the annex is super nice. the obstacle course is scary. and the food was way better than i thought. (they have dessert!) yeah. skipped training.

thur (today) wasnt so bad. maths tutorial wasnt good as usual, but i tried. bio lecture, then lab. the experiment is hard. chem lecture had a bit of fun watching the reaction. then got scolded by liyi for talking too much. ><>< training. and a girl in siyuan's h1 jap class thinks im gay. o.O

yeah, my life seems dull. haha.. i wanna go out sometime. met some people rollerblading in bishan, made me feel like going to blade. maybe i'll just pull them out for a spin over the weekend.. and i need to work out! im weak. T.T

oh, and the gems can start at 11? may have something on in the evening, going out of the house. so unless you want to stay at my place and play/help guard it until late at night, we have to end before 6. i think. and i dont know how to draw the big calendar-thingy for the class! T.T yeah.

okay physics/pw time. bubbye.

2008-05-04T21:59:00.003+08:00

sure. labour day was relaxing. friday wasnt so bad. saturday was cool, with apollo fac outing and all.

now that we all have had our fun, just shut the ___ up and go away, yeah? leave me alone. let me rot in my self-denial and inferiority complex shit. let me get lost, and lose myself in my own head. just sit back, for once, and see me disappear. thats probably what half of you want anyway. yeah, emotions are complex. dont let them control you. what the hell. nice, eh, when we can all keep our feelings in check. even when some bloody idiot is constantly screaming at you to go back and do what you were supposed to do.

i want to play too. i want to train as well. i wanna hang out and stuff. but what can i even do with all these things around me? im trying to get rid of them as much as i can. i appreciate all the help that im getting from all those with me.

but its just you. one thing. a single, lone something that is leading me off track and staying stationary.

im tired. but thanks a lot.

~

an edit: the thing stated above isnt anyone i know. heck, it isnt even a person. its something i dont like, but is stuck with me. i cant say i hate me, or it, but i dont like that way it is. freak, i even cursed. whats the matter with me?

2008-04-29T23:18:00.002+08:00

must be lack of sleep. and here i am still blogging. short one la, then go sleep.

feeling sluggish since sunday, then things went crazy on monday. mrs chua was very angry at the class due to various reasons, and also because friday we were mostly sleeping during the lecture. there are more reasons, but nothing will be said here. anyway, marvin did the 500wordessay for the class, so thanks marvin! and then we each had to do another 500wordessay for mrs chua on our behaviour over the last 2 terms. most of us did by today.

monday morning, tried to celebrate emelyne's birthday during ct session, but mrs chua didnt allow, so had to push back to original schedule. did some things against mrs chua's permission, so i deserved more scolding than i got then. then played a game where we had to organise pictures we were holding (one each) in a story order. we arranged them in the correct order, but wrong direction. xD then had to figure out the meaning of the game. that we were one s73, and one less person will cause the story of s73 to become ragged and discontinuous.

then celebrated emelyne's birthday after gp! haha some pictures on class blog, courtesy of jon. although we broke more rules, it was fun. and we cleared up after that. i bought the oreo cheesecake! haha but i wanna try esther's one. if she bakes one for us to try la, that is. =D

training, then weights, then bonded kj (birthday-boy!), pillar-ed him, tabasco-ed him, and then tried to bond zn and ME, cos our birthdays were 2 weeks ago. i coward, used all my strength until they scared that someone get injured. sorry! i dont like tabasco (or any sauce, in fact) on me. and i didnt bring towel! then went down to cut cake. which was palm-sized. then they tried to smash cake on me to get back, but i siam-ed. and they went to get kj again. with both cake and sauce. poor him la. wash once already then kena again. xD then i cleared up again. didnt get to eat any cake in the end. tiramisu, with alcohol-gone-sour-after-3-hours-in-hot-weather. oh wells.

today, i fell asleep during maths, and got called awake by mrs chua. sorry mrs chua, but i was really dizzy and had headache this whole day. went back on my word, within a few hours of writing the apology letter. i seriously need to wake up and come to my senses.

didnt feel very good for the whole day la. kept missing my step, and head wasnt helping. lol, marvin and liyi were having fun trying to help me relieve my headache during econs. then marvin kept going about "ehh liyi help daryl massage his head la!" -.- something tells me marvin would have wanted to be me for econs lesson today.

then went to moelc again. did gp compre there. and listened on the lesson. complicated stuff. but the students there are super fun la! haha can laugh super long and loudly. and they had exchange students over! thats why there were some jap students around our school the last few days. one of the exchange students attached to a student in the class i crashed could speak english better than many of us, and another was super shocked at the workload of the h1 students. wait till she sees the h2 curriculum. xD

anyway going off now. supposed to be a short post, but turned out long, as usual. wayy past my bedtime. head not better, but took panadolx2. hopefully i can go to school tomorrow without any problems. csm! APOLLO FTW! CHEER!!! YEAHHH!!! bring bottles to smash. and some homework in case it gets boring. good night. bubbye.

2008-04-27T17:46:00.003+08:00

yesterday was one scary day.

first: training, got a lecture by coach about leadership and arguing with the captain. i guess he was right, but it really wasnt my fault; i was pissed, and i had already told him weeks ago that i wouldnt be able to stay on fridays.
second: after training, went to eat with several teammates. ordering food, then realised how ex it was. heck, ordered. in the end, spent $8 total. o.O hole in my pocket.
third: was on the way home with brian on 157 to toa payoh. then the bus suddenly braked when turning at a junction. when the bus continued, we saw a puppy on the road, trying to get past cars. it survived, while 20+ cars were stuck in a jam.
fourth: went home, and realised that it was super late and i hadnt done anything. then got stuck reading. -.- had to pull myself to do some revision of maths, and i still couldnt get it. bleh.
fifth: left home at 6 for dinner with family. reached adam road food court to eat, then took a long time to eat that it was 7.25 when we left the food court. and it was jammed all the way to school. and the concert was in 5 minutes. lucky when i got there the people were all just streaming in, and the concert started late.
sixth: after the concert, went home, and realised once again that it was like 11 plus already. o.O

crazy day. anyway, emelyne went for the concert too. i didnt know lowell was in the guitar ensemble. yuhan also. chanyi also. chanyi is PRO. heard from jon that she grade 8 theory and practical, and diploma, and something about violin, and learns guitar at 5 times anyone else there. she performed nocturne in b flat minor during the concert. haha emelyne funny. she say buy flowers very normal, so she got sweets for jonathan. then jonathan got sore throat, cannot eat. xD but better than me la. i brought nothing for jon la. and almost killed his rose when bjorn and i carried him in a failed attempt to throw him down the stage.

today's also kj's and zuxin's birthdays! haha exactly 2 weeks after mine, and 3 weeks after jy's. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU (both). =D haha. and tomorrow's going to be one nice day for at least 2 people. haha.

ehh marvin, i dont find comfort in judo. xq, i dont find comfort in studying. i prefer sleeping and slacking and playing and eating and going to gym. xD but thanks. =) i've been eating a lot lately... must cut down. mm. random.

bubbye.

2008-04-22T23:18:00.003+08:00

crazy weekend. friday night piano, sat training, then tried mugging bio, then sun comp (performed my worst ever yet. really wanted to whack myself la. ><), then tried mugging again, then went for blackbelt (!) training. we were told that it was 5.30, then we went there and found out that it ended at 5.30 and the next class was at 7.30. bio = die. had quite a fun training session, got thrown more than threw, then went home. reached home past 10 larh. how to mug.

so basically i died during yesterday's bio. despite everyone saying it was freaking easy. i hope i got phy spa right, though. insanity, 2 tests in a row without break. bleargh. cant remember anything else until 1.30. had lunch, went to check 2.4 timings with liyi, then went to play a bit of soccer with brian and boyi, got super sweaty in under 15 minutes, stopped because of lightning, went back to find liyi mugging chem and talking to marvin, tried learning some bboy stuff from edwin, then took out dna tutorial to do the first half with peijin's help. lol, she was so bored she came over to s73's bench to mug.

peijin: ehh, your senior class has an audrey right?
me: uhh, yeah, i think so.
peijin: mm. should be.
me: how you know? why ask?
peijin: dunno la. the bench felt familiar ma.
me: o.O

yeah, she recognizes classes not by class, but by bench. cool. xD

anyway left for the second (and last, i think) blackbelt lesson at around 4.30. reached at 5.30, then practised till i think 7.30. then went home at around 8.30. yayness. =D

today was a bit weird. i felt okay in the morning, then towards the end my body went wrong. started with bio. didnt bring my notes, so i tried sharing with kianmin and enlin. then fell asleep. when i woke up, my head was throbbing and liyi asked why my eyes were so red. bleh. then went for chem with headache and pain-ed eyes. washed eyes before econs, but still had a bit of headache. (i passed chem. yay.) borrowed jiali's paper to do corrections before econs lecture started. someone was SNORING again. audibly. xD

went home directly after school, rested. maths and chem spa revision a bit screwed. training tomorrow also a bit scary, with a team from malaysia coming over. i think. they should be quite pro. if sir wants me to fight, i'll probably go down too many times. but im still kinda looking forward to meeting them. weird.

good luck to liyi, anying and jonathan for the ct post. and good luck to us for chem spa. and good luck to esther for 2.4. and good luck to emelyne and sheryl for their competitions tomorrow. cant remember anything else already. and marvin and liyi and anyone else who feels down, jia you! cheer up a bit. think positive. the mental image wins you half the battle. =)

for cip, the 30 hour famine sounds nice. i wanna try for it. anyone in the class wants to join, can contact me or the person in charge (i dont know who at the moment.) im still trying to find out when and where it is. you get 30 hours cip, and quite a lot of fun. =) yup. bubbye.

~

"when i asked you to fill the broken pot with water, what were you thinking?"
"i just threw the pot into the pond."
"and i just threw your broken souls into my heart."

a korean movie (the title evades my memory),
about a monk who takes in 5 criminals for repentant training,
despite knowing that they were wanted for manslaughter.
the monk was asking the ringleader about a challenge he had given them,
to fill a pot with water without plugging a hole at the base the size of a man's torso.
(the pot was huge, too, by the way.)

2008-04-18T23:09:00.003+08:00

I PIA-ED and I IMPROVED my 2.4 timing. =D rocks. YEAHH. haha. quite happy that i broke the 12-minute milestone (mine; my stamina SUCKS.) so yayness. that means i got 4 a's and 2 c's. could have been better, but i'm happy. =)

and marvin really has a lot to say. must slow down a bit so people can catch up. and dont come up with so random stuff. you know what i'm talking about. anyway dont stress so much la. i know i'm being hypocritical, but you shouldnt take things slightly more easily. and thanks for tagging. my blog seems so stagnant... like its really a personal diary or something. ><

went back to moelc yesterday! followed siyuan haha. went to buy some chips for the teacher at j8 ntuc because of some treating thing, and also cos the teacher likes salty stuff (she's thai.), then went to moelc to mug for half an hour before the h1 jap class started. then went into the container classrooms. last year, there was like 2 containers or so. then now suddenly got 3 ROWS of containers. all air-conditioned. o.O lucky juniors.

the class is cool and super bonded. even though there were at least 5 different schools and like only 3 guys (not including me) in a class of 11+ people, they were like super happy in there. all talking and laughing and playing and YET still keeping up with the lesson and within classroom decorum. very cool. and they even accepted me, making me feel like i was part of them even though it was my first time seeing half of them. then this guy bought the same salt and vinegar lays chips as me! haha i dont eat chips, so just gave the packet to the class. they opened mine, and kept his in storage. xD and like they have 2 tins of biscuits in the class' store la! haha. recess no one left the class for food. all eat there and then.

h1 jap is crazy la. i thought it was h2. turns out h2 is even worse. the class i sat in was all about demographics of japan. elderly population, aging society etc. and must say all in jap. o.O and then they had small presentations of places of interest in singapore, in jap! haha super funny and informative. then they had kanji quiz, so i mugged a bit of bio.

after class caught up with some stuff with jaspang while walking towards bishan interchange. couldnt talk much because the class people were all talking and laughing all the way. haha super fun class! cant get enough of them. think im going back the week after next. next week is e-learning week for the h1 jap class. yay. xDD

anyway acads not so good as of now. econs dropped again, damn lucky i didnt fail. my dd/ss concepts all screwed up. then essay crapped out. bleh. i give up trying to remember what happened this week. but today went through phy mock spa. next week is bio lect test, and ACTUAL PHY SPA directly after that. i think. T.T jia you man. to s73 and everyone else taking the tests as well.

jon asked me a question this morning after pe. got me to think about what the heck i have been doing since i entered jc. what and where on earth am i trying to get? true; whatever i am doing now, its going to get me no where. but im still stuck; i dont know where to go. im desperately trying to pull my grades up, and trying to recover so i can train normally again. which is tough, seeing as im super accident-prone. my left shoulder's been whacked 3 times over the past 2-3 weeks. and there's competition on sunday and grading on monday. good luck to me.

so i've been emo-ing these few days. or actually since the start of the year. im really feeling the strain im putting on myself, and i dont know how to get rid of it. i really should do what i advise others to do, but i dont seem to listen to myself. sure, i can talk about my problems and ways to solve them, but im all talk and no action. bloody hypocritical talk-the-walk bastard = me. its time to change, but why on earth am i not?!

am i really that serious all the time? i know i need to be more expressive at times, but are the others' impression of me this super serious guy? bleh. how to change? its me larh. im not used to like being smiley and all; its just my normal face lor. what can i say. dont always tell me not to be serious; half the time im not lor. thats the way i speak/talk. and i really cant help my repeated apologies. >< haha cant say sorry here.

super long post. yeah. and still sourcing for a new blogskin. sucks. im picky. bubbye.

P.s. ehh anying, i think its filipino, not philipino or (somethingelse). but thats random. yeah.

2008-04-15T20:04:00.002+08:00

thanks liyi! haha its super random but some are quite true. =D

i realised that 08s73 is super random and has its highs and lows. but its nice to know that we rock. =D

yesterday was like the best belated birthday party i ever had larh. maybe cos its like one out of two. xD but anywayy the class (pekyee i think) bought a super nice chocolate cake to celebrate my, kianmin's and boxun's birthdays! but i stole the candle-blowing. xD

during gp, all of them were like "meet at class bench after gp lesson arh." then i went down and was like pulled away by marvin to collect notes. o.O so i went and realised that our class had a lot of notes to take. haha. then went to buy correction fluid and staples. then went back to class bench and found kaiyuan crossing the pillar with only his legs and one hand and asking me to try. -.- then saw monkey, and helped her tekan people to go run for apollo csm. then liyi and emelyne suddenly appeared out of nowhere and pulled the whole class to fishtank. then i went in, and the whole class like started singing birthday song. SCARY LA. i thought the door had crashed or something. lol. then take photos, cut cake (my skills can rival the senior's. ><), eat cake, and clear up. YAYY. =D

maths test was crap, as usual. then somehow we managed to push gp essay till today. lol. and my pip group finally started making our bridge, thanks to pekyee's pro dad. we were comparing how come 4 people do slower than one person, and some more he's like so much nicer and stronger than ours. HAHA. gp essay today wasnt so bad, but im scared i didnt do as well as the first test. then got back econs lect test 2 also. score ><. then talked to tengara relating to some lesson stuff after class. helped a lot.

marvin is crazy. really. the things he thinks about and talks about are super random larh. very amusing sometimes. then kianmin is like super serious. lol. and jonyeo was snoring in econs lect today, with zn and his good friends all in dreamland, stuck on page 1 of macro econs. xD but half the lt was asleep larh. and liyi and esther were like super awake laughing at the sleeping row in front of us and snoring jonyeo behind us. haha.

the weather is crazy. but the rain's kinda nice. =) and if you have knee pain, or suspect knee cap injuries, do leg raises. lie down on your back on the floor, hands relaxed, and raise your legs, straight, until they are perpendicular to your body, then lower them down, still straight, without them touching the floor. repeat 3 sets of 10/20/30/up-to-you. trains your quadriceps (thigh muscles) to help protect your knees.

bubbye.

2008-04-13T22:57:00.003+08:00

yay quick post. im screwed for tomorrow's maths, but heck, today was on hell of a day. xDD

skipped 2 qingming visits already, so this time must go. woke up at 5 to go sao mu at cck. finished at around 7 plus, then went home to sleep till 11. after washing up, off to toa payoh shuang lin monastery. finished at around 12 plus. (had the $1 ice-cream from the random vendor! =D long time never eat already.) then went to bright hill at bishan. finished at around 2, then went home with mother's side relatives.

had chicken curry and 1 rou zhong for lunch. then mum bought kfc. >< but heck, once in a while. xD super oily. haha. then surprise la, phone that sent for repair yesterday was ready 2 days in advance. YEAHH. so went to collect. =) then came back and tried to do maths. then by the time i realised my graphing gg, time for dinner. crab! xDD

haha then after dinner yx came over to give me present and peng qiao we eating durian, so he eat for a while. then he had to go back to complete gp debate stuff. then i was forced to stay downstairs while they got the cake ready. then they brought the cake down and sang song and made me wish a wish and blow the candles out while they took photo. avoided some hands to my face. xD. then cut cake and give out. chocolate almond cake! WAHAHA. then kena-ed 2 smears on my face larh, while i was eating. then must allow a third smear, or will die from their protesting of unfairness. <3 cousins! haha.

then packed up, sent relatives off and watched a bit of death note 2 and step up! haha until 10:35. then took meds, and now here, leaving my maths stuff open and typing here. yayy. xDD

so i got a glass, a t-shirt, a shoebag, 2 red packets, a repaired phone, and a crazy dinner. thats like so many presents. =D haha. best birthday in years la! <3 parents, relatives, people who wished my happy birthday and people who gave me presents! haha yay. seventeen for 11 hours already! =)

2008-04-12T21:50:00.003+08:00

thanks xueqin for the cute glass! xDD my first birthday present for 2008. and i didnt realise there was a note until i reached home and my mum asked me if i had read the note inside. HAHA. thanks! =)

woke up at 9 this morning realising that my family had woken up at 6 to go jogging at east coast. >< just as well, though. had training at 10. but i wanted to get out of my house. and yet i am so freaking tired. i dont even know whats making me so darn lethargic every day larh. -.-

had breakfast, then parents fetched me to school (yay. xD). tried training, but shoulder was hurting like crap. so slacked a bit, then started practising for kodokan grading with the rest of the team. nage no kata, 1st dan. peicheng taught. yeahh. but i suck at the katas, as zn and hiro can vouch. i think i hurt-ed zn. sorry! must practise more. bleh.

parents fetched me at 2.15 (double yay. xDD) and we went to pick up youngest sister from chinese dance, then went to parkway to send my phone for repairs. the phone log and navigator not working. 3 days without usual phone. T.T but no choice. cant call back if i get missed calls. i got lost at the mall looking for the nokia stall. -.-

then went to pick up my younger sister from cchms bazaar. she said it was fun. and i missed st nicks fiesta 2 weeks ago. sucks. then home, bathed/changed, and went to vivo for dinner. some place called carnivore brazil something. super nice, but SUPER ex. scary. lol. then went to giant to buy stuff, and then starbucks to buy raspberry frapuccino. =D

yay birthday celebration. i like. 2 more hours left. =)

2008-04-11T22:30:00.004+08:00

quite happy with napfa results, but still have 2.4 to go. have to get fitter. must train more. stamina getting super low. and must start revising schoolwork. grades arent getting much better. keep forgetting to pack my stuff in after unpacking them the night before. make mental note to bring homework/notes. and i missed some interesting talk by some athlete today, according to kj. T.T

reader's digest got quite some fun stuff.

'ipods disrupt pacemakers.

close encounters with ipods caused interference with cardiac pacemakers in 50 percent of patients, according to electromagnetic tests. when the ipods were held 5cm from patients' chests for 5-10 seconds, some pacemakers could misread heart function, and, in one case, the life preserving device temporarily stopped functioning.

the study of 83 people fitted with pacemakers was conducted by a secondary school student, jay thaker, with the help of university of michigan researchers. "although the typical pacemaker patient may not be an ipod user, they are often in close contact with grandchildren who are users," says thaker.'

reader's digest, october 2008, pg 63.

something random for fun. and losing 10% of your body weight can cut the pain of osteoarthritis of the knee by half. but only if you are overweight and have osteoarthritis. if your knee hurts, train up your quadriceps (a.k.a. thigh muscles). also in the same issue. =)

reading is fun. sleepy time. bubbye.

2008-04-09T22:59:00.002+08:00

emo-ed; knock it out, move on. for now, at least.

theres still lots to be done. stagnating wont help. and blogging wont too.

thanks to those who listened.

2008-04-07T21:51:00.003+08:00

second post because the first post was already so long, and i realised i forgot to add some things. again. ><

haha and i forgot that yesterday was jy's birthday la! haha mixed up with daniel's, which was 2/4. only remembered at like 6 pm. oh wells. bet he was overwhelmed by all the birthday gifts and wishes. haha. HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY TO YOU JINYAO. xDD

and today was zn's birthday! hahaha he received some kind of horse thingy that little kids like to ride on from 3 friends, a pair of lacoste shoes from his sister, ipod classic from his parents... yeah. rich. which is really unlike me lor, which i have been trying to prove for the past few weeks. anyhow, after training the a div people kinda celebrated his birthday lor. sang birthday song in the weights room @ salt, pillar-ed him (cos flag-poling is against the rules! =D), then brian and boyi brought out the chocolate cake they bought (no idea when and where. o.O) and went downstairs to eat (in front of the st johns people. haha.). i didnt eat. dieting. xDD then hiroshi and jhunboon smashed some cake on zhongning's face. and the rest helped to clean up/collect money/went off to play soccer with a tennis ball. yupp.

must go off. very late. i hope i dont screw up tomorrow's chem. rest well and recover soon mrs chua. bubbye.

2008-04-07T21:21:00.003+08:00

haha yay slacking time! just finished dinner and all. so thought i'd blog for a bit since i havent done for a while and want to keep to my weekly blogpost vow. and there are stuffs to be blogged about!

yeahh saturday jts! haha and i was late la. >< went home after training, washed up, changed, had lunch, then chionged to harbourfront to find esther, jiali, enlin and liyi. then esther and jiali went to vivo to shop while i waited with enlin and liyi for anyone who would be coming for the afternoon thing. but after anying yusiang and aaron came no one else seemed to come. so esther jiali and anying went to sentosa while me enlin liyi yusiang and aaron went to play hide-and-seek at vivo. i was seeker! xD and i pro, found all 4 of them within 15 minutes! first level of vivo, and with help la. hahaha. found yusiang and aaron walking around outside adidas, then yusiang smsed liyi and she told him where she was and i found her and liyi. HAHAHA. <3 hide-and-seek. =D

then enlin had to go off, and zijie came. then the 5 of us went to harbourfront to meet esther jiali and anying who were caught in this super heavy downpour and went to uhh clarke quay to meet with the rest of the people coming. lots were late. and i got lost leading some seniors and classmates to the cafe. but we still got there. i sound like im reassuring myself. xD

pitstop was not bad la, very much like settlers cafe. boardgames after food (took a loooooooong time man.), and can even sign randomly on the walls! (i didnt sign. T.T) a lot of the people went crazy screaming themselves hoarse or laughing themselves silly. insanity. o.O but it was fun larh. haha. proof at anying's album and soon-to-be-uploaded class album. esther and jiali had to leave early, then i was alone at the all girls/seniors table, so i jumped ship and landed on the table with zijie and jonathan and played some chicken game. i owned them both at the chicken/memory game. xD then played the tower thingy. i dont know if we played something else in between or after or before. poor memory. then we took random photos and one group photo. then liyi's parents were super nice and sent me to clarke quay station! yay. =D

sunday was boring. i woke up at 2+ PM. omg larh. did the necessary stuff, then started maths tutorial and extra exercises. thats about it. then slept quite late because was reading reader's digest. amblyopia is common in many young children, and parents should let their children go for eye check-ups at 1 month, 3 months, half-year and year-old just in case any problems crop up. cancer, tumours, diseases or any random illness can be found through the eyes alone, and a full body check-up isnt expensive nowadays. yeah.

first time late today lor. not my fault. even the teacher sided the students la, cos she was late as well. xD. but true. im guessing more than 100 people (jc side only) were late, as the buses were super late. 24 minutes, as quoted by the teacher. obviously cant make it on time one. stupid, 1 (temporary) demerit point. T.T and i screwed physics up again. yeahh. so retest and gotta copy the definition 20 times. >< yeah, i got the definition wrong. crap, right. i know. my part in gp presentation wasnt good as well. i still dont know why i speak so fast and mumble everything out. and i strained my shoulder again during training. not just once. 3 times. wth la.

bad start for a week. hopefully things will look better in the next few days. esp tomorrow. ><

2008-04-04T23:29:00.003+08:00

haha borrowing marvin's blog to remember the past week. i have a poorer memory than you lor marvin.

more than half a week into april already. fast. ><

monday did econs test. screwed the last page essay, and im not even sure whether i got my points in or not. then we got back phy prac. i got a 1/8. how nice. along with half the class. thats bad. right? gp was crazy. my slides are like super few, so i was trying to redeem myself by helping sheryl with the first part of the presentation. then sheryl's comp blacked out. because she didnt plug in the battery properly. -.- in the end used my comp.

students' council results out on tuesday, none in s73 got in. T.T but at least we tried. i think. but congrats to the rest! haha campaign was tiring but kinda fun. i didnt get any fooooood. T.T

april 1st was screwed. but at least i had a bit of fun. first time no one play prank on me in school la. im like super gullible. as some people in s73 already know. -.- yeah but i guess its just me la. not that i want it that way...

completed pi on tue night. handed in on wed. got out groups on tue as well. im with emelyne, enlin and xueqin. got my pi back today, and was told that i didnt get the point at all. so the whole pi scrapped. ><

wed was weird. intra-class things kinda got less smooth for me. and chem mock spa was baaad. at least the calculations part. my final value was totally off the mark. 45.1%.

went for survive maths on thur. not so bad, at least i could finally complete several questions on my own without constantly asking for help. a bit of achievement, yay. then went back to ct bench and talked to charlene for half an hour before she ran off for higher chinese. then continued a bit of maths, packed my stuff, and asked lowell to wait for me while i collected my o level cert and the nyaa booklets. within the 15 minutes i was gone, the left wing was flooded. i was walking under shelter the whole way, and it looked as though i was walking in the rain. the rain was literally horizontal, with the wind blowing the trees all sideways. o.O and all the worksheets in my bag were wet. wth. and MY BAG ISNT WATERPROOF. O-M-G.

and i wasted half an hour (i.e. half total time) of the stupid phy mock spa experiment trying to measure using the STRING instead of the RULER. *whacks head on benchtop* yeah. one of the weird stuffs the teacher saw. and i screwed up pip written test. cant even remember what the advantages of the cable-stayed bridge are. so marvin, dont worry la. you didnt do so bad. and its just a super small percentage of the over pip. dont emo, emokid's my job. your job is to go insane with your imagination. =D

at least i finally sat in ct session after 2 weeks. indian modern dance = nice. xD

my shoulder's not getting much better. shall go and sleep now. tomorrow jts. =)

2008-03-30T22:32:00.004+08:00

econs is killer, and i havent completed gp newsweek and pi and phy pip and maths and bio prac and chem tut. DEAD.

have always wondered how nice it would be, to climb trees and just relax, or to be able to talk to animals and understand how they felt about us humans. or to be able to go to the sea on a cool day and enjoy the view, or to climb to the top of my house and play there.

so many things that one could have fun with, and yet something or another would deny us any chance of enjoying them. probably because of the strictness of our parents (i dont think thats bad - i thank them for being strict.), or school, or our other commitments, but how carefree that would have been. being closer to nature, having fun at the same time while relaxing, simply enjoying life...

just imagine, if we were all just gathering in a group, not caring about homework, and, just like after cip, just playing and talking and laughing. but instead of just cycling/talking, we would be playing in the sea, on the sand, climbing up the smaller trees, going up the observatory tower, running along the fishing harbour... acting just like we were small kids once again. no worries, no troubles, just simple, innocent joy and happiness.

im so envious of the smaller kids around me. their laughter, true; their actions, innocent; their minds, open; their hearts, pure. i guess its them, kids, who make the world go round, and help us balance this world of troubles and pain.

i once saw a kid playing with a kitten along a void deck near my old house. the kitten was a stray, and wouldnt go near anyone from my memory. until that day. its amazing how this kid, not older than 6, can relate to a stray kitten too frightened to be out in the open, yet there they were, playing, not caring about anything else. soon enough, the kid's mother came along, reprimanded the boy for being in contact with the stray, and took him home (presumably). surprisingly, even though he was pulled away, he turned and waved to the kitten with a smile on his face. and the kitten just sat there, looking at the boy until he turned the corner, then ran off to hide again.

and i was just standing there, transfixed.

to me, animals and young kids are very similar. mostly adorable, mostly innocent; its like they can link so easily that you would assume they knew each other since they were born. however, as we grow up, hostilities set in, and most adults we see nowadays couldnt care less for a stray. i guess theres nothing i can do about it, and i would probably become like that as well, but for now, yeah, lets just hope for the better.

i would really like to climb that tree and admire the view from up there, but i would probably just get fined by ministry of environment. wth. thats all for ranting. back to reality.

2008-03-29T20:32:00.003+08:00

i am seriously injury-prone.

injured shoulder. cant lift arm properly, but fingers still usable, at least. training la. and had a talk with several people about my situation. coach thought i was putting cca in second priority to council, when i was still deciding on which to drop. didnt know that i had decided to stick with cca. >< thanks to madeline and jingfang (sorry if i misspelled your names. do you even know this blog exists? -.-) for cheering me up. =)

i got team bag! hahaha very BIG. can see on monday, made to use it as schoolbag as well. but super ex. $60! thats like 3 weeks of savings. >< but at least its nice and (hopefully) durable. yayness~ xDD

anyway im still behind schoolwork. havent done gp, pip or pi yet. now still doing maths. need to borrow someone's econs notes as well, and bio prac stuffs. bleh. test...

(charlene) i dont know about the right choice, and council isnt dangerous! xD its fun and all. but even my dad was telling me to drop training and go for council... o.O but thanks for your encouragement and support. =)
(szeying) haha no la, not suck. changed layout and all already! and it was due to bts anyway. animals are nice.
(liyi) ahaha where's your blog?

okay back to work.

2008-03-28T22:49:00.002+08:00

4 days since last post. and i still havent completed hw. dies.

finally decided to drop out of council yesterday afternoon. after talking to team mates and teacher i/c, and thinking through it for the past 2 weeks.. no matter which one i chose in the end, i know that i'll regret not taking it up. but have to make a decision and walk down only one path. taking both paths would just kill me, while carrying that heavy backpack that is schoolwork. good luck iParty. jia you zijie, bey and boxun.

was talking to regarding on either tues or wed afternoon, cant remember. sorted out a few things, but was/am still confused about the rest. why is one confused about the other? i know my conversational skills and so on are very weak, but im like that. usually without any topic one, not speaking unless spoken to. became like this after lower sec.. harsh memories. maybe that has made me keep things to myself, and become so random.

i got bronze. but am not very satisfied with the way i competed.. and no more blaming my injuries. its my skill and technique thats super lousy. not to mention speed and strength as well. inferior. must start training. want to know scores for all divs and so on, ask me or any other team mate. big guy probably already has posted on his blog anyway..

so thur went to fight in the morning and supported the c boys (and c girls) in the afternoon. then missed one full day's lessons. maths tut 7a and b must complete, right? ><><

parents came back today after c1 parents day. my first term was very screwed, and the second term isnt going to go easy on me either. =( but still pushing on. must work harder, and must organise time better. its all about schoolwork now. i should probably use this time to finish maths..

i miss everyone. j3s, 08s73, og12, council, 4b07, 12slc-as/imp, 6a03.

2008-03-24T22:56:00.003+08:00

haha liyi start blog! then we can spam and have more fun reading and can spam and waste time finding out if you have updated your blog and can spam and yeah. =D

met up with 6a2003 small gang last thu after cip. didnt know until jm asked me if i was going. then chionged to bishan (past ps) and realised that they were at ps. phone died at cip, but charged at bishan nokia store. then chionged to ps and searched, and cant find. so smsed nic. received the reply, tried to reply, then phone died again. >< nice la. in the end found pf and followed her to the gang. then followed them to fish&co at glass house and ate and got cip opportunity with kel which jon thinks shouldnt be our project. then they went back to ps after losing our way in an underground passageway and i went home.

she switched to contacts.

i dont mind having those kind of sports things for GEMs. but like esther said, maybe something that can be used in our future lives. but sports more fun.. >< can right? archery? shoot arrows. -.- heck, follow kaiyuan. shoot the chicken into the oven and bake.

lagging far behind in homework. bio, chem, maths, econs, gp, pw, phy. thats all the subjects we are taking. all here a bit there a bit then come back a lot. i should be doing bio now, but i want to write something here first... and council campaign finally picking up some slack. a lot of slack, actually. which reminds me, i need to take raffia from my toolkit. later ba.

wed free day! but still have training. and still doing campaign. and still have homework. >< and thu is competition. im scared. my skills and all are no where near competing standards... and i think my toe has problem. junior's back smashed into it during sparring today, and couldnt use it properly since. now developed very ugly bruising, and hurts when i move it. hopefully not fracture... and im still sick, and my knees and head arent helping much.

went back with the rest of iParty after banner painting today. i went crazy with bey la. talking about animal cruelty and rights, and me protecting and loving animals and being an environmentalist. bey just cant seem to stop niao-ing la. lol. then on the way to bus stop he was like "ehh say you love * leh. then i reply." or something like that. so i went "i love (1), i love (2), i love (3), i love (4). repeat." and he went "i hate (1), i hate (2), i hate (3), i hate (4). repeat." -.- wth lor. xDD

so what if i like animals? just look at the panda in my dp. isnt it cute?! hahaha. i wanna go out sometime. im tired. i want an escape. maybe jump to some random reserve and rest; look at the animals and plants and stuff. saw a cat on the way home. randoming. but it was super cute la. =)

anyway its time to do bio. or not im DEAD. and this blog shall not DIE yet. see. long post. xD oh and its EMELYNE! haha not emelyene. waahahah. and updated the class photobucket. where are the rest of the photos?

2008-03-22T02:06:00.002+08:00

i'm here, and my blog isnt dead. but i dont know how long it can survive...

HAHA szeying was my blog very difficult to find? its just there on the class blog. and np. lol. your tag super funny.

i just realised i dont know half the things going around me. all the people around me, i dont know so many things about them, so many things that they are doing, so many things that are revolving around them. heck, i dont even know what im doing. i need to do some F5's in my life.

i know i failed maths. prob the lowest. and bleh, competition and campaign next week. and phy test on monday. and where did wednesday go!? RAHH.

ehh marvin. only in good mood then i listen to you is it? haha, maybe i should try to listen more. sometimes just too fan already, so i just zi bi. sorry. >< and whats with the emelyne and me thing?

OH and it's emeLYNE, not emeLYENE. i think. shall ask her later in school.

thanks liyi for listening on thursday. =)

i shall try to post at least once a week, starting next week. but considering how much my memory can actually retain, thats quite... difficult. heck, i couldnt even remember clearly all the details about the week like esther can. im seriously wondering how she can recall all those things and put them down in words lor. >< photographic memory.

2008-03-13T23:34:00.003+08:00

exactly one month to happy day! haha. i hope so, anyway.

and the one week break is almost gone. and i havent done nuts about my homework, just touched them here and there... die. preparations for maths and phy are so not done, and econs ilp and campaign all poorly done. must kao zijie and bey and boxun for the latter.

theory may be easier than practical, but its still no fun. and enlin was mugging away while i was playing/watching movie. guilty! T.T haha but esther and enlin like super pro in music stuff. can ask them almost anything and they can answer one lor. unlike bey who talks about random history crap when we were talking about the musical time periods. i seriously have no idea how im going to get past this sat. pon-ning training for the exam too. =D

had ct gathering today. my place, directly after phy lesson, which was kinda insane. pekyee, liyi overseas, xueqin, charlene sick, anying, jiali personal matters, sophia no physics/no idea where she was. so in the end emelyne esther enlin sheryl (who came due to "fate", as she calls it. xD) jonathan bey zijie kianmin marvin boxun came over for gathering. did i leave out anyone? i count only 17.

anyway, lunch was spaghetti, chicken wings, nuggets, mushroom-pork-roll-things, and broccoli. and i didnt know marvin was carnivorous. o.O and esther should eat more. even enlin (mugging theory) took second helpings! esther enlin and marvin were watching tom and jerry with my youngest sister while eating. after makan sheryl left for competition. then set up one table of mahjong and emelyne jonathan boxun and me played. yeah, there are a lot of rules. >< then went up to set up halo2 for bey kianmin and zijie. bey owned me first game la, 3-0. rocket launcher pwned. then went back down to set up kungfu dunk.

in the end all the mahjong people watched the whole of kungfu dunk. then break for 15 minutes. then went back to play mahjong while esther and enlin watched raise your voice. was half-watching-half-playing la. xD then piano teacher came at around 5.45. emelyne and boxun had left, so walked esther enlin jonathan and kianmin to mrt station. then came back and saw bey and zijie off. then went to bathe and do theory and have dinner and have lesson.

weird gathering. less than half the class showed up again. but heck, i thought it was fun even though i wasnt that good a host. >< can improve on my hosting skills. first step: get more drinks. kungfu dunk has no plot. but its kinda cool. haha.

i have training in less than 9 hours time, so bubbye for now. to learn: how to blog nicer; how to post pictures. good night.

2008-03-11T23:15:00.006+08:00

AND i shall post again. on jonheng's request. to do some quiz. that he, esther, marvin and jon's friends took. mm.

and we shall start.

1. Who took your profile picture?
i dont have a profile pic. my face would have destroyed the camera taking it. =)

2.Exactly what are you wearing right now?
dry-fit shirt + 3/4 pants.

3. What is your current problem?
i. need. SLEEP. + im short. + my grades. + piano! + a lot more. T.T (question should be what ARE your current problemS?)

4. What makes you most happy?
staying out with friends.

5. What's the name of the song you're listening to?
一直很安静 by 阿桑

________________________________________
Chapter 1:ABOUT YOU
1.NiCKNAME?
darou. diarrhoea. darlie. barrel. paikah.

2. Eye color?
brown.

3. Nail color?
colourless?

4.Height?
164 cm. SHORT.WARGH.

________________________________________
Chapter 2: FAMILY ♥

1. Do you love your parent(s)?
obviously.

2. Do you get along with your parents?
most of the time.

3. Are your parents chill?
probably. depends on viewpoint. xD to me yeah.

4. Do you have any Siblings?
yeah, 2 younger sisters.

________________________________________
Chapter 3: FAVORITE ♥
1. Ice Cream?
all kinds, except greentea.

2. Season?
winter! although the others have their nice points...

3. Book?
none, i just read whatever i have/can find.

4. Band?
none, i listen to whatever i can.

5. Food?
none, i eat whatever i can. except bitter stuff.

6. Drink(s)?
water. preferably cold, but depends on situation.

7. Pen color?
blue-black. oh-che.

8. Store?
no idea.

9. Persons?
strangers are simply friends you have yet to meet/make. =)

________________________________________
Chapter 4: DO YOU ♥

1. Write on your hand?
used to. now people draw on mine.

2. Call people back?
as much as i can.

3. Believe in love?
yeah.

4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
heck, i can sleep anywhere.

________________________________________
Chapter 5: HAVE YOU ♥

1. Kissed someone in the past 48 hours?
cant remember when was the last time i kissed. ><

2. If so...where?
na.

3. Had PHYSICAL therapy?
whats with the caps? yeah. since sec 3, and still ongoing.

4. Gotten surgery?
stitches withstanding, yes. albeit minor.

5. Taken painkillers?
since sec 3. on and off now, mostly off.

6. Overdoes on pain killers?
havent died, so guess not. o.O

7. Been stung by a bee?
YEAH. T.T

8. Threw up in a doctor's office?
no.

________________________________________
Chapter 6: WHO/WHAT WAS THE LAST ♥

1. Person to text you?
esther. about gathering's food.

2. where is #1?
probably sleeping at home. only just went offline.

3. Thing you said?
goodnight.

4. Person you hugged?
i cant remember! but i do know that it was at a busstop somewhere outside school...

ended.

2008-03-11T22:28:00.005+08:00

shall post again to make it less complicated, and to fill what what i left out.

I BOUGHT THE GIANT TURTLE. yayness xD haha. but i dont know if its the one you were referring to. i just got the one i saw that was the best likeliness to your description (which was simply, a giant turtle. o.O). yeah. haha. its not really that giant, but its quite big. hope you like it! but i cant pass it to you this week, can i? never mind.

THANKS FOR MAKING ME THE LEAD CHARACTER OF YOUR VIDEO. now im dao-ed. xD haha not bad la actually, i dont mind helping you guys film again. im such a great actor, right? xDD the toy part was really stupid.

bey is still sick. infections refuse to let him go. i told you, mugging and 4 cans of coffee a day will bring you no good one. rest well hor. and get well soon. regards coming from claire as well. =)

esther, i really wish i could help, as would most people. keep it in your mind that yes, there's the sun after the rain. i cant tell you not to worry; all i can do now is to give you all the (moral) support i can. keep strong, and thanks for the encouragement.

trying to complete theory exam papers now... bleargh. and i fell asleep on the paper this afternoon larh. got scolded by mum. ><><. oh well. if there are any special requests tell me by tomorrow afternoon. or else too bad. yeah.

~

and after seeing what jieyang did, i think i shall write here also, so let others know more about my strengths. my top 5 strengths, under the strengthsquest thing:

1. Includer.
"Stretch the circle wider." This is the philosophy around which you orient your life. You want to include people and make them feel part of the group. In direct contrast to those who are drawn only to exclusive groups, you actively avoid those groups that exclude others. You want to expand the group so that as many people as possible can benefit from its support. You hate the sight of someone looking in. You want to draw them in so that they can feel the warmth of the group. You are an instinctively accepting person. Regardless of race or sex or nationality or personality or faith, you cast few judgements. Judgements can hurt a person's feelings. Why do that if you don't have to? Your accepting nature does not necessarily rest on a belief that each of us is different and that one should respect these differences. Rather, it rests on you conviction that fundamentally we are all the same. we are all equally important. Thus, no one should be ignored. Each of us should be included. It is the least we all deserve.

2. Developer.
You see the potential in others. Very often, in fact, potential is all you see. In your view no individual is fully formed. On the contrary, each individual is a work in progress, alive with possibilities. And you are drawn toward people for this very reason. When you interact with others, your goal is to help them experience success. YOu look for ways to challenge them. You devise interesting experiences that can stretch them and help them grow. And all the while you are on the lookout for the signs of growth - a new behaviour learned or modified, a slight improvement in a skill, a glimpse of excellence or of "flow" where previously there were only halting steps. For you these small increments - invisible to some - are clear signs of potential being realised. These signs of growth in others are your fuel. They bring you strength and satisfaction. Over time many will seek you out for help and encouragement because on some level they know that your helpfulness is both genuine and fulfilling to you.

3. Adaptability
You live in the moment. You don't see the future as a fixed destination. Instead, you see it as a place that you create out of the choices that you make right now. And so you discover your future one choice at a time. This doesn't mean that you don't have plans. You probably do. But this theme of Adaptability does enable you to respond willingly to the demands of the moment even if they pull you away from your plans. Unlike some, you don't resent sudden requests or unforeseen detours. You expect them. They are inevitable. Indeed, on some level you actually look forward to them. You are, at heart, a very flexible person who can stay productive when the demands of work are pulling you in many different directions at once.

4. Relator
Relator describes your attitude toward your relationships. In simple terms, the Relator theme pulls you toward people you already know. You do not necessarily shy away from meeting new people - in fact, you may have other themes that cause you to enjoy the thrill of turning strangers into friends - but you do derive a great deal of pleasure and strength from being around your close friends. You are comfortable with intimacy. Once the initial connection has been made, you deliberately encourage a deepening of the relationship. You want to understand their feelings, their goals, their fears, and their dreams; and you want them to understand yours. You know that this kind of closeness implies a certain amount of risk - you might be taken advantage of - but you are willing to accept that risk. For you a relationship has value only if it is genuine. And the only way to know that is to entrust yourself to the other person. The more you share with each other, the more you risk together. The more you risk together, the more each of you proves your caring is genuine. These are your steps toward real friendship, and you take them willingly.

5. Positivity
You are generous with praise, quick to smile, and always on the lookout for the positive in the situation. Some call you lighthearted. Others just wish that their glass were as full as yours seems to be. But either way, people want to be around you. Their world looks better around you because your enthusiasm is contagious. Lacking your energy and optimism, some find their world drab with repetition or, worse, heavy with pressure. You seem to find a way to lighten their spirit.You inject drama into every project. You celebrate every achievement. You find ways to make everything more exceiting and more vital. Some cynics may reject your energy, but you are rarely dragged down. Your Positivity won't allow in. Somehow you can't quite escape your conviction that it is good to be alive, that work can be fun, and that no matter what the setbacks, one must never lose one's sense of humour.

just so that you people can know me better. =)

2008-03-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

in the end, i still took 24 hours after my last post saying that i would update my blog... and im still overdue. ohwell.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YINGYING, my sister, JASPER, SZEYING and my mum! haha 5 people, 4 days. 8/3, 9/3, 10/3, 11/3 and 11/3. and i still havent gotten szeying her present! must try and find. mm. wu gui pa tie chui! =D

ct gathering should be at my place (yay esther did her job as activity i/c! hahaha anyway really, nice job, despite all the niao-ing and all. you were great. =)), directly after physics. lunch, movie screening, mahjong, anything else you guys want that i can provide. please stay as late as possible, and please, in the first place, COME! xD

so far, i've passed phy, and failed chem. and i cant take part in this year's competition already. sigh. i really dont know if i can continue training full time, competitive. but i wanna train normally as well. with them, or you guys, if you are reading.

and im still slacking! haha. been reading manga and piano notes and doing past year papers for theory. exam this sat, 15/3. scared. >< but must try. again. practical already so poor... and i havent touched school work! okay, maybe a bit here and there, but its totally insignificant.

went to celebrate my sister's birthday on sat, 8/3. had cake in the morning, slacked off the afternoon, then went to kinokuniya first before dinner. i bought a book! haha title sport and exercise biomechanics. got phy, chem and bio related stuff in there. and i found my injury! you want to know, look for me. cant write here. (although i think i've posted about it sometime ago... )

then went to kbox for dinner! haha i think we had about 20 people, 3-and-a-half families, all singing and eating and drinking and playing and getting high and happy. xD was quite fun, considering i forgot about online meeting. >< sorry again, jon!

i cant remember what on earth happened last week, or since the last time i posted, except for the important things or something that happened relatively recently. super lousy memory. yeah. heh. but heck, at least i know how to stay sane.

anying has recovered! haha yay! and jon and kaiyuan no more scars, but i still have. how come?! and now bey is sick, some inflammation of the ear and nose and/or something. BEY, lay off on the caffeine for now. its good that you are listening to the doctor and resting, but NO MORE COFFEE OR TEA HOR. and rest well. i will try to remember as much of the presentation as i can. =)

something random to end off:
"stupid jonathan, can't think as fast as daryl. stupid jon. xD" - charlene. WAHAHAHA
we were talking at the busstop and this just came out. haha. no offence jonheng! =)

~

s73 rocks. i dont care what the rest say, i dont care how stupid or crazy they think we are for taking tripsci, i love everyone. 08/7s73 = fun+caring+hyper+random+unique+a lot of other things i cant think of right now. we may not be as bonded as other cts/ogs, we may be the smallest ct ever in hci (i think), we may not have the best of talents, BUT WE ARE ONE.

"seven.<3" -jonheng. =)

2008-03-02T23:04:00.003+08:00

please VOTE FOR ME. thankew. =)

sorry anying! wahh. it all started with me. how are you feeling? maybe you dont read my blog, but just wanted to apologise. even though it probably wasnt my fault. yeah. heck, get well soon yeah? rest more, and come back fast! we need food during gp! haha and your random craziness in class. zao ri kang fu!

was crazy this weekend. sat morning couldnt get up again. coach told cap who told me i may not get to participate if my training stays the way it is now. im trying to change already, but i need to take things one step at a time. i will come for training, but i still need time.

then earned my first tutoring fees. total of $5 per person, $10 total for 2.5 hours! super cheap right! and im very flexible with timing and venue and topic, as long as its science/maths related! haha. but not too bad la, i just hope that my first 2 tutees can do well for their upcoming maths and phy tests.

tried to do some work, but couldnt. no mood. so ended up reading manga again. lucky could go over to yx's place in the evening and stay over. the whole afternoon slacking away, so brought maths and bio to yx's place and mugged with him. completed the yellow assignment (with kaiyuan's help, lol) and carbo tut, then studied enzymes with him till midnight. (8-12 - 4 hrs. wth. im slow.) then watched clannad eps 1-9, and read the first chap of ichigo 100%. and slept at 4.30 am.

woke up at 9 this morning, and tried to study proteins. ended up watching coupling and clannad again. and i teared in clannad! that show's animation is GREAT la. <3 clannad. xD. then went back home at around 12 for brunch. then bathed, and slept for about an hour. woke up, then went with family to aunt's place for dinner. reached there, taught sister more maths, chem and phy, had dinner, then fell asleep waiting for cousins. super nice la, go out and dao me at home. their home some more. haha but when they came back not bad la. i even played my cousin's boyfriend's psp. went home, and now blogging.

just did mbti under jonheng's guidance. not too bad, at least now i know where to work on. now to find out how to work on it. my four letters thing kinda surprised me in a way, but heck. so 2 choices. change others and their thinking about me, or change myself. hmm.

~

is it with me, or is it about me? i probably dont know that much, but i want to help myself and you too. its not about trust, is it? i dont want to doubt myself. i want to be certain of who i am, and where i want to go. i want to be able to walk down my decided path confidently.

2008-02-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

omg la. just when im set on running then got so many pro people come and run... almost no hope already. even within my ct got at least 6 people running. out of 20. cool right. VOTE FOR ME. =)

todays morning traffic was INSANE. travel time difference of more than 40 minutes la! the stupid person run away... then the 67 i was on (bendy bus) was stuck in jam, just outside serene centre. stopped in yellow box in the middle of junction blocked the adjacent traffic flow for i think 3 red lights. the drivers were pissed la, and somemore cannot horn. scary. reached school at 7.45. how nice.tyco shit, no flag-raising. xD

haha friday's the (academically) slackest day. pw, pe (squash!), phy tut, maths lec, phy lec, ct session, training. lol. pw was super quiet la. tutor trying to get us to open but fail. then pe was fun. for me. haha. i re-learnt squash in 1 hour! lessons were still okay, but kept falling asleep. again. >< ct session council-meet-students! haha. the videos were damn funny. went to ask xuanyi some stuff, met ningxin, tried convincing her to join council, then run off to training. late for 1.5 hours i think. and my knees still hurt.

missed ct dinner. so another small gathering missed. all i know about it is that esther got niao-ed again by bey and zijie, as usual. can change the ct dinner day? friday.. i cmi. im selfish. bleh. -_- tuesday! haha. after econs la! 5+ finish, lag a bit, then go makan. can? if not never mind. i pon training. xD

and anying is sick. not my fault this time ba? anyway got some weird symptoms... how are you feeling already? must get well soon. we need out hyper zi-high happy tall person. =) haha one small para all for anying. feel honoured. xD

after having so many talks with so many different people who view me in roughly the same way, i think i may be able to change more. for the better. i hope. and do i really look so serious and fierce and dao? even my sister's friends dont dare to talk to me la. sis told me they scared i scold them or something. o.O but if i smile will scare more people off lor.

still got a lot of homework, but got training again tomorrow morning and after that tutoring. see how my lax methods work with random zi-high sec 3s. and im still saving for szeying's present la. haha. see if i can find a nice one. it was a turtle you wanted right? see, poor memory. and i cant remember names and faces for nuts. sorry. and im going to try the weekly sweets thing la. maybe can work. MAYBE. and is it szeying who cannot take chocolates?

2008-02-28T23:14:00.000+08:00

yay. now 08s73 really full strength already. 20 people! haha with jonathan and kaiyuan and xueqin back on wed. and chiewlin and sophia in. marvin, go correct your post. spelling errors a lot.

i know i shouldnt be doing this now, but what the heck. bio prac already screwed, i have no idea whats going to happen. came back from aphelion nite '08. was okay la, but super tame compared to last year and that before. we were running around in snakes and all la! then today all only stand a bit, sit a bit, scream a bit. sian. and the sngs girls were "too modest" in their dance, quoted from an ex-sngs who was in hcap'06 with our year. the jc item was okay, remix of the 4 fac dances.

after bio copying went down to jog a bit. then play some tennis. then jog a bit. then went to ct bench and walked around and talked to jonathan and zijie, and watched esther and jiali drawing ESTHER on esthers file, then went to buy fruit tart for jonathan and zijie, then tried to study bio but didnt, then talked to seniors (i think was yihong, weilin and jasmin), then talked to jingying, then met up with justin to go to aphnite'08.

weird la, going back to see the sngs girls. reminded me of 2 years ago, when fookm was still there and chai was helping me out despite her problems. oh and congrats to her on her newborn! (i think.) the guys were almost totally dao-ing the girls. wth. but at least the girls were having fun playing at the monkey bars and parallel bars.. -_-

went home at around 9 with jinyao bjorn dom weisheng davin and jingying. took 156 with davin and jingying, and was kindly counselled (again) by jingying after davin got off. she says shes sharp, noticing my problem. mm. but helped a lot. =) got home, got the cracked phone to my dad, ate a bit of dinner, bathed, and now here.

and im supposed to be tutoring on phy for my sister and her friends la. scared i teach them the wrong stuff, the way i've been doing my schoolwork for the past weeks. i know im screwed for all subjects. but again, heck. must try to keep up if im going to get unscrewed.

my posts are getting very bland, compared to others'. other people's so nice to read. mine?... sigh. oh well. sleepy time.

2008-02-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

yay. im blogging again. msn cant sign in, trying to repair the wireless connection. so for now just blog. weird, only my msn not working, the rest of my internet-related applications are still moving as per normal. wth.

last weekend was slacking like there would be no tomorrow. read a bit of chem here and there, then play. so monday chem test died lor. it was insane. i'd be super happy if i got a 2 digit score (out of 30). and charlene completed the whole paper la. crazy one. xD. then today's econs test was not so bad, but i know i missed out a lot of key points. heck, test over. dont wanna talk about it no more.

MONDAY POP! haha played and danced after stupid chem test and a funny/weird phy tutorial. chow couldnt do prac without kaiyuan, jonheng and xueqin (who fell quite sick after training during the weekend), so he returned us our lecture test papers we did a long time ago. i did way better than i expected of myself. and kaiyuan got like 12/15 la. siao one. then we went to PLAY in o2!

met up with chiewlin and sophia (our 2 new classmates. xDD <3) at the hall (i think) then we grouped together and went to outside lt5 (hu bao lou?) for the first briefing with benpoh and monkey and mrs chua. after first intros and all, we went back down to b103 for games. somehow ended up dancing at inner plaza within 15 minutes in the classroom. lol. after that i cant remember, but i know we ended up back at the hall and got our game list and went to play o2 games.

first game the medic game (dog-and-bone-on-steroids; daxian elbowed liyi. bad daxian.) , second game the sliding-on-tarp-shuttle-run-dive-thing, third game the 2-people-carry-1-person-with-cap-run-around-get-other-group-people's-cap-game, fourth game minesweeper (we won! =D), and fifth game twin soccer (ankles hurt). something like that.

after soccer i met jingying from hcap'06. talked to her for a bit, then went to play the pair-climb-up-soapy-wet-slope-thing with the les partners. ended up pairing with eleanor, someone i met through cca. didnt make it to the top, but 1 step away only. >< monkey couldnt climb la. xD but she tried super hard with her partner. les partners also. but they super funny la, their actions and all. heh. then went to bathe. changed into fac shirt and jeans, super hot. met up with the class after getting as many as possible, then went kap for dinner.

so... anying, esther, liyi, chiewlin, bey, kianmin, zijie, boxun and me were eating there, and emelyne rushed over after her training. then we went back like 5/10 minutes late for the final gathering before fac dance. and it started raining. so we went to hall to watch last year's fac dance by fac comm, then went back to central plaza for the actual dance. athena, artemis, ares and the APOLLO. all were cool and nice. emelyne danced nice la! super cool and hyper partner. xD. then had song session, mass dances (i couldnt recognise senior. o.O sorry beiyun! ><), then announcement. apollo didnt win, fac comm members cried, a lot of people tried consoling them, some people danced fac dance without music, we joined in, take photo (s73 and fac comm! yay. =)), then said good night. liyi, enlin and i went crazy la. "APOLLO FAC COMM WE LOVE YOU!" haha. then no response. then thomas came over and group-hugged the 3 of us. =) (and thanks enlin, charlene, siyuan and liyi, for what happened when we were leaving. thank you so much.)

today was normal. got new pw slot, almost like free period. boxun, zijie and i went to library, saw chiewlin after a while, then boxun and i slept. haha. when we got up for bio, saw esther and anying outside library studying. chiewlin went another way. then went back to classroom, and realised that bey and kianmin were at the library too. o.O.

econs test, shh. econs tut was funny la. bey, kianmin and i switched names. at first wanted zijie inside, but failed because tengara knew zijie from vbc. anyway, daryl > bey, bey > kianmin and kianmin > daryl. xD i think she knew, but chose not to say anything. lol.

thats all for yesterday and today. tomorrow the 2 chicken pox and the 1 fever all coming back, recovered (fully, hopfully). yay, full strength of 20, 08s73! haha. kaiyuan owes me 1.5 weeks of niao-ing.

no more for school. my sister got me like 4 friends for tutoring. maths and science, sec 3. i think im the slackest tutor around la, and among the cheapest. havent started yet, but... i dont know. oh well. when the time comes, i'll know. at least i can get a bit more cash... T.T

very long post already, again. so bubbye for now. have to find out why my msn and email not working. mm.

2008-02-22T23:26:00.003+08:00

had yuan xiao yesterday, forgot to write. parents were nice la, buying yusheng from sakae just because i was too sick to eat during my chicken pox bout. super nice la! haha too long time never eat already. then before i slept last night i pasted 08s73 photo on my desk. right in front of my workplace. super cool. then nose dunno why suddenly bleed like siao after i bathe. xD

didnt finish what i was writing about marvin's blog yesterday. >< it was like, its not what i would have expected to see, but knowing marvin, that would be what he would write. very... orientated towards political and arguable issues. but its still nice in its own manner. =)

anyway today wasn't very fun la. feeling sick and nauseous the whole day, breathing a bit tight, knees feeling weird from acupuncture session. and still went to train, with idiotic results. wont elaborate, because someone got hurt as well. tried learning athena and ares fac dances - epic failure. golf was kinda lame, but the speaker very entertaining. to me, at least. xD. my tuts are dying, so what the heck. then came the ct session. siao la, the amount of things they cover over saw (service awareness week). anyway want to donate blood also cannot. need what six months after serious illnesses/diseases (chicken pox!!). poor anying got a bit of fever, then they dont allow her to donate. and mrs chua was right. im not the "rare blood" O-. im O+. -_-

i know im going to die in all the tests. but never mind. still trying to complete bio prac. prob the last one to hand in. and i missed 2 online tests! thats brings my total of missed online tests up to 3. anyway was trying to do theory in school, but failed like crazy. should ask esther or charlene when i have the time. theory exam in 2 weeks or so la! date confirmed - 8/3. die. but today's lesson was still okay. at least i remembered some stuff. but practical will suffer once i finish theory... T.T

last day as only first-intake students. next monday will have second-intake le. whole new experience. and o2! haha. still have no idea what games to play. maybe shall play primary school games... hmm. must play hard. next and following weeks tests can die one. chem, econs, bio, maths.

theres more i should say, but i cant remember what they are. suffering from slight amnesia/concussion, head got whacked at least 10 times during training today la. so bubbye for now. very long post. bleh.

(esther) haha im not sure if i agree to what i wrote either, but that was what i heard, so yeah...
(xueqin) hello! haha. i didnt know you were already reading my blog. since when? and the two of them... its up to them la. not to us. just like you and boxun. =)
(huishan) i know my posts are long. i dont know how to blog la. ><

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i know there were things i shouldnt have done, and things i should have. i know i made many mistakes, and some repeatedly as well. i know i have hurt you all more than once, and even sometimes i dont know that i have hurt you. i know i should change, and i have, but its still not enough, is it? i know. but im helpless as of now. apologies have no help, but thats all i can give for now. sorry. to all of you.

2008-02-21T21:19:00.000+08:00

got a bit of time now, so just blog la. must learn how to use all the things properly. still have no idea how to post pictures. updated: now have marvin's blog link. yay. xD. read marvin's blog. its not what

and yayness again! ahaha, liyi came back. and jiali yay! hahaha. i'm crazy. and s73 doesnt have a pessimist la. my third strength in top five was positivity la! maybe im negative for myself, but im trying to change. stupid inferiority complex... yeah. but the rest i mostly agree (with esther and marvin). quite cool, s73. variety and one-of-a-kind, yet holding together like nothing else bothers. <3 s0873. =)

gp paper today i think die. my topics and points all like no link like that. i was dumb, not even making sure that the question i got was actually correct or not, and still never change essay plan when i realised it was wrong (one day before the test - yesterday). so serves me right if i do horribly for gp. and the rest of my subjects too. screwed for all. need to study everything. and im still blogging here.

anyway the previous days back in school were fun, much more since i havent been back for 2 weeks. dance and study and pia homework and play and... and i entered njc for the first time since i came to hci la (thanks to liyi. xD). pathetic, i know. realised that it was so much bigger than i used to think, and that was already quite big. went in, then passed liyi her package and went out. people were staring at my apollo tee. scary. and learning the girls' part for fac dance! haha thanks to esther and liyi and zona (i think). but still cannot master. anyway my dancing sucks, everyone knows that.

my turn for our class people's descriptions. try, at least.
anying/sheryl/charlene/emelyne - pro sports.
emelyne and pekyee - sisters.
liyi and esther - les partners la, where can deny.
jiali - cleverest ba. she knows everything. refer to esther's blog.
enlin - handsome, shy, innocent. yeah, if im a girl. but nice anyway. like the rest of the class. xD
kianmin - supporter/crapper/i dont know. xD
marvin - mug. cca spammer.
bey/xueqin - MUGMUGMUG. this one everyone already answered, i cant say anything.
emelyne/esther/liyi - pretties of 08s73.
kaiyuan/boxun - niao-ing shifu and tudi. the master can niao me anytime, anywhere one la.
jonathan - insane, fun. probably the best looking (? cant remember.) guy in 08s73.
zijie/bey - true craziness, always laughing for no apparent reason.
daryl - NOT pessimist. but procrastinator.
i think that's all. 08s73 is really one hell of a class. and a cool one too. =)

congrats to singapore for winning the 2010 Youth Olympic Games bid! yay. but my dad told me i would die. my sister too. by then we would be in ns, then have to do quite some saikang-ing for the yog things, like directing traffic or whatnot. then my sister in jc1 by then, will have to host some of the youth athletes. what about the rest of us? bitter-sweet thing leh. ><

my blog seems quite stagnant, i think. no one visit one. xD. heck la. im thinking too much. and i think im missing out something in this post, but i dont know what, so thats it for now. bio prac and chem tut and maths tut.

2008-02-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

i know i shouldnt be writing this now, but bleh. just came back from acupunture and some food. now doing gp plan... wrong question la. anyway, once i find out how to post photos, the needles poking into my knees (3 each knee) can be seen. yayness. skipped training to get like 5 photos. how nice. and still must take tablets and powder thing.

jiali's appeal worked! haha yay, you go girl. tried asking liyi but she didnt respond to me... just hope that we can see her tomorrow in school. ><

anyway, both jonathan and kaiyuan seem to be getting much better (as compared to me). both can even sms go on msn at this point of time... maybe their body immune system pro-er than mine. even now i still sick la.

okay shorter post this time. must continue with gp plan first. tomorrow fail. jia you. type more next time, when i have it. got so much more to say. and thanks esther! xD

2008-02-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

i broke out of quarantine 2 days early. sat went to my aunt's place. played mahjong and lost again. cant remember what i did before that... >< then cannot sleep until 3 am. woke up sun morn at 6.45 for competition. played 2, lost 2. havent been training for a few months, but no excuse: i suck now. so nothing lor. then went home, bathed, then went to my uncle's place for lunch-dinner thing. didnt gamble (confirm lose, why still play?), but watched tv and got scolded for eating random stuff while still having chicken pox. bleh. waited for the last person to enter the house, then had to leave for my paternal aunt's house (was at maternal's side.). then had more food (sushi!) and watched a bit of death note with the pretties. then eat more. after recovering like constant eating, and still not full. im getting fat. =(

haha the above is super vague on what happened over the weekend. cant remember much, although i remember trying to get out of the house and trying to eat all kinds of things in the recovery phase. then missed so many things... no point listing them all out now. valentines day was kinda down. couldnt pay for the flowers, so didnt get sent. T.T (thanks kian min and CJ for trying. =)) and thanks xueqin for the thought!

anyway quarantine is over now. im out of the house and back to school this week. sorry, kaiyuan and jonheng, i didnt know you both werent immunised yet. i didnt know i had it when we went out for stj, and you (kaiyuan) were sitting right beside me la, and you (jonheng) were sitting directly behind me. sorry! anyone else got it? anying and charlene and marvin and someone else i forgot who, you can go to some polyclinic or hospital to get the immunisation jab, i think. and i think it works for 5 years, then you can get a booster jab.

i am SCREWED for homework. 3 pracs, dunno how many tuts and lecs i missed/havent completed, and econs is history. die. and i still need a nice blogskin to take the place of this template skin. ><

oh, and HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY to yx, nic, pekyee, eehui, zhenyu, jiamin, and anyone else i forgot to wish. =)

2008-02-11T17:50:00.000+08:00

siao. finally getting well enough to blog again la. what cny. people come here and pity me only. couldnt get angbao cos in mourning... but still got 3 from outside the family. T.T but was still okay overall la. lost like shit (as usual) in mahjong, and also in blackjack. sister won like 10 bucks in one game of dai di la! insane one. xD

the past week was crazy. after the weekend of going to hospital and talking to enlin and trying to spread the message of something (i forgot) around, all the little red dots started popping up. medicine 5 times a day, got so bad i had to take sleeping pill. (half a tab got me out a good 20+ hours. O.o) i knew that chicken pox gets worse as you get older, but i didnt know the magnitude. 5 days of mostly lying in bed except for mealtimes and bathing/washing up means 2 times out of bed each day. i stink of iodine...

anyway, thanks s73 for being so encouraging! esther, enlin (sarcasmrocks!), xueqin (banner gg.), pekyee (i brought pe shirt. xD), bey, mrs chua, jiali, jonathan, kianmin (a lot of homework, i know.), liyi (thanks lots! and i wanna see you next week hor.), charlene (daRYL. =)), emelyne, boxun (happynewyeartoyoutoo.), and the rest. and whoever in 6a2003 who knew (esp. yixuan. thanks for coming over!), and anyone else i missed.

i only heard (read) of the results of the cny carnival thingo through esther's blog. that crazy? someone please update me. my poor potatoes... ><

back to homework le. finished the chem online test just on time only, didnt know i was almost past the deadline. now for the phy thing... just realised i have a lot to do to catch up.

(jonathan) be nice to her la. go and tag her blog. GO. shes nice enough to link me even before i know how to link la. ><

2008-02-03T17:30:00.000+08:00

haha yayness. xDD

actually, i'm supposed to be resting right now, but i'm feeling weird, so just created this new blog and yeah. first post up. i'm not even sure how to post, so trying out here and there.

anyway, it kinda sucks that i'm learning how to blog just when i fall sick. but there's not much to do anyway right now (i'm not planning on touching homework or theory right now) so blogging seems okay. laggers still have to keep up with the modern age. =) otherwise kaiyuan will start niao-ing me again. at least i got a blog now. HAH.

i need teachers. blogging teachers. yup.

that's all for now ba. going to sleep for a few hours. typing seems to be meeting some problems, heck. bubbye.