Saturday, March 13, 2010
exactly one week. wow.
yes i made mistakes. i know i didnt read instructions clearly. but there isnt a point in constantly repeating my mistake over and over again. trying to prove that im wrong 4 times over is redundant.
if you feel that there isnt a point in seeing a group of people that you knew for 2 years and have taken time to come out, or in thanking people who have helped you over the past 2 years, then dont even bother showing up. coming all the way then saying you'd rather be somewhere else defeats the organiser completely. or co-organiser, for that matter.
i want to change my ways and become better, and to make attempts to know you all again, but somehow i feel rebuffed and turned away from. sensitivity is a stupid thing, and emotions shouldnt get priority, but it just cant be helped.
all in all, for now, i'll try to go on doing what i have been trying to do, but i cant even guarantee myself that i'll last this way. hopefully the future will give me opportunities to forge better links. stronger bonds. with those who simply can understand.
and thank you for knowing that i still exist in some part of this world, and accepting me for who i am.
Saturday, March 06, 2010
did much better than expected. really quite happy. =D
Sunday, February 28, 2010
last day of the lunar new year. acknowledged 1 reader to my blog. not bad, considering it was revived only yesterday.
went for 15th day reunion at my uncle's place. ate, talked, mahjong. highlight: youngest sister (11) and 2 cousins of my cousin (10 and 6, if i'm not mistaken) were playing with sparklers. the next moment, we saw smoke and 2 police officers standing beside them. playing with fire with no adults supervising, and vandalism. ran down from 2nd floor to help clear up the mess, literal and metaphorical. another cousin helped. went up and realised i broke a porcelain cup when i ran down. 3 kids were screwed by respective parents.
there you have it. a fun zheng yue shi wu.
bubbye.
been waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too long.
Friday, November 07, 2008
somehow blogger's fonts are screwing up. or maybe just for me. and im finally updating again. seems like no one reads it, except for marvin. lol. heck... if this blog dies it dies... =)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
marvin partially true la. haha. i think this blog can die soon. >< cant really think of what to write. hence im actually doing the bloody long quiz from liyi.
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other tags!:
no idea.
no.
sometimes. =)
a super negative mentality to match/that surpasses mine.
funny.
blue and white and multi-coloured.
me.
yeah. quite a bit.
open. except for times when i try to train my eyes and end up getting motion sickness. ><
all ideas are still ideas. to me at least. so none.
op.
twinkle twinkle little star.
i dont know... guess not.
anyone can make me laugh. =)
smb. actually strike that. none.
none.
61. Who will you choose to die with?
why on earth would i want someone to die when i die? i dont want other people to die with me. they should die before me. so they wont suffer when i die.
62. Where have you been today?
school.
63. What game do you play often?
genre = racing/driving or (mmo)rpg.
64. Who are you missing right now?
no one in particular.
65. If you have to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
neither. i would just go home to my parents. yeah, im weak.
66. What are you doing right now?
quiz, printing stuffs for xueqin.
67. Which primary school are you from?
peichun public.
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
silver. chrome. white.
69. What emotion do you like to show?
joy? no idea.
70. What is your life to you?
something to colour in with family, relatives and friends.
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
usually just keep it in. until i lose myself and start self-mutilating then MAYBE tell selected people. and yes i used to self-mutilate. NOT by cutting.
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
jon. about class outing and fac outing.
73. Who do you admire most?
my dad. =)
74. Which month are you born in?
april.
75. How are you feeling right now?
sleepy. crap, liyi, you made me yawn when you typed yawn here. -.-
76. What is the time now?
23:55. dont oversleep tomorrow.
77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
insane, crazy, zi-high, fun, optimistic. =)
78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
dont dye your hair. esther knows why.
79. Why are you doing this test?
i have no idea why i listened to instructions on a computer screen.
80. What do you do when you're moody
listen to music, stone, read, sleep, exercise.
81. At which age you wish to get married?
let me find a 对象 first.
82. Who is more important to you?
all my loved ones. primarily my immediate family.
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
find all the people who have made an impact in my life. thank s73. thank teachers. thank relatives. spend the rest of my time with my parents (and maybe selected people?).
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
myself.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
yeah. scientifically proven. sorry.
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
not telling.
87. What is your goal for this year?
to keep to my goals for next year, since this year is ending.
88.Do you believe in eternity love?
no, but probably eternal love.
89. What feeling do you love most?
genuine appreciation for who i really am.
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
yeah. quiz too long, author dunno what question to write already is it?
91. What feeling do you hate most?
i cant say i hate hatred the most, because that would be contradictory. cant remember what dr richard arnold taught us. ><
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes. but i dont know how to maintain them.
93. Do you believe in God?
i dont know.
94. Who cares for you most?
my family, i guess.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my values as a person.
96. What will you bring when you fight?
my brains.
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
many stuff. top on the list: making my parents mad.
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
nothing. i'd be dead by then.
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
break up.
100. How do you feel now?
that i probably wasted quite a bit of my time on this quiz. many errors.. but heck. its a nice thing to do, and helped me reflect.
completed a 100 question quiz. funny man. my parents would kill me if they knew i was doing these kinds of stuff... have to sleep now. good night.
エメィン。僕は何をしていますか。うああああ… 今は考えない。混乱します。
シエン、読んでいるんだったら、誰も話せないでください。お願いね。
bubbye.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
BLOG UPDATE.
OMG its been like almost 3 weeks since i last touched this blog la. haha thanks to 3 people for 3 tags. xDD shows why i shouldnt even keep this blog alive...
but alive it shall remain. no matter how sad it is. xD who cares anyway. haha...
THANKS 08S73 for helping me in whatever way for the past week. =)
special mention to marvin, kaiyuan, bey, zijie, jon, enlin and jiali(!) for visiting me last fri (17/10) and the rest for bringing me the fruits and homework (><). all eaten by family already. xD (haha emelyne's small apple!)
special mention to charlene for keeping in contact and supporting me throughout too. cant bear to open the gift. ><
thanks mrs chua for calling on my mum. =)
and THANKS to anyone else whom i forgot. heh.
anyway whether my op is a success of not still depends. the surgery itself was successful, obviously, and so far no infection setting in *touch wood*. all thats left is training my eye to look straight once more. but seems quite difficult leh. >< still hurts.
lol for op details i shall refrain from typing here. want details ask me directly. and for goodness' sake my eye was NOT removed from its socket, nor was my face but open to operate on the eye, nor will i fully recover all my eyesight.
oh and i get motion sickness by using the operated eye only and trying to walk. =S not a good feeling. mum scolded me for trying that out. lol.
no sports for another 3 weeks. and even then light sports only. T.T
PW WR finally handed in. word count and cd left to hand in. yeah i know my group's kinda late, but we did try our best to hand in on time... my fault, kay? yeah, i didnt manage to complete my tasks sufficiently enough, and had to redo them. plus my 3+ days off didnt help much too. but at least we are done. and our (my) op (part) still isnt doing too well. i cant memorise my lines, and im like super nervous even when practising. gg.
school's almost out. and next year's a killer year. dunno whats going to happen to our class, with h3 and dropping and downgrading and (possible) upgrading of subjects.
二月の時間に、スポツしない。困難な時間ね。でも僕は心配しない、友達があるんですから。
今の感情に当惑する。エメリンへの感情は普通か。本当に解りません…
im thinking that there should be a number of grammatical errors or whatnot in there, but its the best i can do now. im still learning! haha.
okay i'll think of more interesting things to blog about next time. for now, no more. bubbye. =)
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enlin: LOL yeah i know. figured that out while recovering in hospital bed. xD
liyi: xD
marvin: updated. yeah i have nothing much to say and my life isnt that all interesting... >< plus i dont know what to write about.