Sunday, May 04, 2008
sure. labour day was relaxing. friday wasnt so bad. saturday was cool, with apollo fac outing and all.
now that we all have had our fun, just shut the ___ up and go away, yeah? leave me alone. let me rot in my self-denial and inferiority complex shit. let me get lost, and lose myself in my own head. just sit back, for once, and see me disappear. thats probably what half of you want anyway. yeah, emotions are complex. dont let them control you. what the hell. nice, eh, when we can all keep our feelings in check. even when some bloody idiot is constantly screaming at you to go back and do what you were supposed to do.
i want to play too. i want to train as well. i wanna hang out and stuff. but what can i even do with all these things around me? im trying to get rid of them as much as i can. i appreciate all the help that im getting from all those with me.
but its just you. one thing. a single, lone something that is leading me off track and staying stationary.
im tired. but thanks a lot.
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an edit: the thing stated above isnt anyone i know. heck, it isnt even a person. its something i dont like, but is stuck with me. i cant say i hate me, or it, but i dont like that way it is. freak, i even cursed. whats the matter with me?