Wednesday, July 30, 2008
should really change my blogskin. probably after nat hols.
im super tired. i dont even know what im doing la. im confused as to how i can control myself. i know i lack seriously lack discipline and willpower, and my time management skills are shit (why am i writing this now when i should be doing maths. -.-), but i cant help myself. that or i just simply refuse to help myself. i dont know.
so every day 2 chapters of any topic of any subject. all the way till promos. and a study plan. yeah, i dont have one. thats why i've been doing so poorly. need to change tack in studying methods. all this talk; i probably should just force myself to start doing things.
got frustrated today after i couldnt do maths. >< sucks. then took a short walk outside, and i realised the method to another physics question totally unrelated... hell, im weird. but at least now i know how i think. better, at least, than what i have been doing.
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sorry, liyi, that i passed you the flu. and sorry that it got so bad, even though apologising wont help you get better. get well soon, and good luck for friday's performance.
sorry, esther, that i did something wrong in term 2. even though i dont know if this apology will be accepted. but im sincerely sorry.
sorry, marvin, that i hurt you (psychologically, i think), even though i didnt mean to. i know my intentions, and they are not what you think.
i guess apologies here wont seem sincere and wont help much, but im a coward. for now. i cant muster the courage to face the facts and the people that i have wronged. and for that, i feel sorry for myself.
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must understand that the only way i can help myself is to start doing properly. pay more attention, and stay ahead of what im saying/thinking/doing. either way, theres way too much room for improvement. buck up, daryl.
oh and marvin, referring to the replicas, it was just a casual comparison. there's no need to comment on it, or provide another comparison, because there isnt. and if the comparison offended you, sorry, esther.
session one of self-reflection since the meeting. bubbye.